Empezar de nuevo.

We are often like little birds who can't fly against the wind but must go where it blows us. Unless we get strong like an eagle we cannot be sure to get to where we want to go. How to become strong? Begin with a daily prayer regime. Say the Angelus at 6AM/12/6PM and say the rosary daily. Get determined to follow your regime without fail. In this way we learn determination and fortitude. We can grow strong and this is the miracle you need.

 

Good for you! Don't let a day go by without it. I am doing the same.

 

We must all start somewhere. Could this be a starting place for you? Once, only per day? Do you think you could stick to that?

 

It's been a bit since you posted this, but have you been trying to heed your confessors advice? I know you say mediation is difficult, but I'm sure relapsing is difficult as well. I think if you pick the difficult that leads to Christ, He will give you the grace to bear it. Maybe in the morning, start with 10 minutes of alone time with Jesus. Don't worry about what to say in this time; try picturing you two in your favorite outdoor space and simply be with Him there.

 

I believe he's asking if you are open to trying an approach where you gradually reduce your number of MO's. For example for the week you try to only MO seven times. Then, as time goes on you gradually make it stricter like five times a week, then four, then three, and so on until you finally get down to 0 times a week.

 

You said that you managed to fall only once in a particular day. I don't mean to encourage any fall but you must begin someplace. Perhaps you could focus your prayer and your determination on falling no more than once per day? As that becomes a sustainable habit, you might then grow it to once every other day, then once per week, etc. etc.

No amount of sin is good. I pray for the day you can say you have found the grace to fight this temptation more vigorously but until then perhaps some small steps will get you on the right track. One might see that this fits with @MrEcho's method.

I don't suggest this idea for everyone. We are all at different places in our journey to salvation. In my case, a single fall would most likely lead to a binge of sin and for this reason, and many more, I know I must strive to avoid any carnal sin, be it venial or mortal.

 

This is a good step and it is the right place for you at this point. I suggest that you do not try to improve upon it for awhile. In other words, it is too soon to set yourself a bigger goal. Do not attempt to run before you walk. Little steps for now. Stick with no more than once per day for a month or more - as long as it takes to become confident you can maintain this bit of discipline. May God bless your efforts and help you every step of the way. I am praying for you. Please pray for me.

 

Each of us must seek the means to grow some discipline against this temptation and each of us is at a different point in the struggle. The self discipline you employ by not allowing more than once per day is a place you can grow from but you must be patient with yourself. You cannot run before you walk and be of no doubt, someday you will manage so much more but today you are beginning with small steps. Allow your body and your mind to adjust to the new discipline and only then strive for bigger goals. God, intends for these things to take a bit of time so that we truly learn the lessons we need to learn.