each time I relapse my depression, anxiety gets worse

Don't lose hope,bro. You can achieve anything you want. You can try reading some self improvement books. Building new habits with strong determination and willpower is important for you. Our goal should not be confined to quitting only PMO. Engage in new activities, explore the nature, I hope you will feel good enough to start this "do or die "journey once again

 

bro i been there and i know how bad it hurts but bro rember night and lonliness is for short period

 

I understand exactly what you are going through. I recently went through a period of 17 days of no fapping and noticed my depression, stress, and anxiety almost disappeared. When I relapsed, I had the worst depression, stress, anxiety, and anger toward people around me. I understand your pain. I wish I could give you hope,but even an hour of NoFap is good and a chance to heal. Stay strong.