So today I achieved my goal of 45 days of no P and no M. Very pleased! However, I remember dreaming last night about fapping! It wasn't a wet dream or anything and I don't remember dreaming about P or anything, but just fapping. Quite fitting on the day I achieved my initial goal and a stark reminder fap still plays on my mind.
good job ! keep going ! your dream suggests that regardless of how far we think we may have come there are still dark parts lurking in our brains. stay strong and keep healing.
Yes I've had this a few times too. An odd one and it messed with my head for a day or so. Is there a chance you had been subconsciously thinking about fapping once you had reached you goal? If the temptation is there still. How about pushing that goal to 90 days?