Ok i'm on Nofap since some time now,i don't fap alone but i do things with my girlfriend once in a while.The point is,i was able to quit porn cold turkey even though with some problems,initially i passed from porn to instagram models without even noticing that my brain was trying unconsciously to find some material even if not hard,and believe me guys i had years of nonstop porn where i had the classic escalation,vanilla-hardcore-hentai-bestiality-transwoman-cuckold-gay porn. Now this is the point,i am not watching any kind of porn,but i always been anxious from birth and PMO has always been my way to deal with it,to alienate myself along with videogames. The problems is i quit porn,but everytime my anxiety kicks in i find myself fantasizing about sex in every way,i can't like stop it,and even now that i thought i was a lot better,talking with one guy of this website in conversation,only debscribing a scene of a girl i've been with time ago,i got a very hard erection,so i think i'm still a lot sensible to a lot of words,cause i used the words i would find in the titles of the porn i watched,and even the way i wrote it was that way,a lot porn-ish. So my point is,how do i stop sexualizing every kind of thing?Since i watched a lot of gay porn,i'm even having the withdrawals from that,so i became like social anxious,everytime i see a guy i have like the obsession,"oh no why did i see him and noticed him,am i turning gay?",its like a form of HOCD,cause in my entire life before now,i never ever even noticed guys,i wouldn't even care,but now i have this fear of becoming gay for some reason,and its obnoxious since i like have panick attacks all the time i have this thought. So in short terms,how do i stop using sex in my had to fight anxiety? and how do i stop being responsive to porn-like content,even chat triggers me.
This is very interesting and this is exactly the conclusion i reached. I even wrote a post about it https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...lly-dealing-with-an-arousal-addiction.179285/ I wrote another one on how these levels of arousal are abnormal but i can't find it. What i am relatively certain of is that fundamentally it's a masturbation/sex fantasizing addiction, not a porn addiction. Porn just makes sexual fantasizing easier. I think masturbation is closely connected to anxiety and more specifically, separation anxiety. So our brain creates a female presence and a female touch (our hand) so we are never alone. More so, masturbation arousal acts both like an opioid (pleasure) and as a very potent anti-anxiety / benzo medication (after orgasm). To stop it i think using negative reinforcements can help. I used to bite on dried hot peppers and/or take a cold shower.
