Day 72..? But feel like I'm on day 0...

The first 60 days I did not watch P... but I did use hookup apps about half of the time, and did meet a few people (and actual sex did not take place, just other things). I have had about 1/4th of the amount of O's that I normally have. I feel like this is a major improvement than how I used to be.

The past 10days or so have been nothing but hardmode. But I definitely feel like I'm in a flatline. I wake up with morning wood some, and urges, but nothing I can't control.

I even have a scab on my penis head I noticed... The entire time I've M'ed my whole life i NEVER used lube.. I am circumcised. Never used lube. For the past 1-2 years every time I receive oral, the same spot hurts... Its the exact place my thumb would be when I M'ed. i looked there about a week ago and noticed a noticeable scab/scar, or something. I got STD tested and clean... But not touching it, putting on different lotions like neosporin or hydrocortisone, everything, nothing helps it! It hasnt gotten any better. i know by the end of the month (around my hard mode day 30) I will go to a doctor if it hasn't improved any... I just hope I didn't irreversibly damage my penis head through all these yers because that same spot (where I put my thumb during dry M) has been hurting when I receive oral in that spot for years.

I have severe PIED also so ... IDK. This is where I am today. I hope this little scab area (skin is cracked and there seems to be two tiny little blisters) goes away. I am scared.

anybody have experience with this