"Crush on my cousin"

Hey guys, i m gurdeep and i m on my NoFap challenge day 42 ..I know the topic of this thread is kinda of weird but that what which is happening with me right now.I dont know what to do , i m totally confused guys and hoping you guys will definitely help me out of this So i have crush on my cousin .I m 18 and she is of same age as me. Last month i went to my aunt house for my cousin(Her elder brother) marriage.Guys i m telling you the damn truth that i had crush on her since last 1-2 years.So The first few days were normal ,We talked to each other a little bit you know, just casual questions .After my brother marriage ,Something kinda of happennd that i noticed , she was flirting with me and well she also tryed to take me to a place alone.But i did nt react on that things. Although i was totally surprised ,then i started noticing her more that she was like looking at me with weird feeling. And then next day we came back home from my aunt house ,which was approximately 160 km away from our home..Then after 1-2_day i asked her about all the things happened that night, on her instagram acc.She said it was nothing ,you were little upset i thought you were missing your gf ..blah blah blah...Then i told about my crush her .She reacted normally and said it noramal things, it happened in this teenage.. She asked me lots of question about what i liked in her so much ..blah ..blah ..blah...After some time i told her that we cant cross the limit ,we are cousins ..Then i stopped chatting with her for one week.But you know guys i have feelings for her which i cant deny .So after 1 week i again started Talking with her ,I told that i was little busy in exams blah blah bla..Then after some days , all of sudden i asked her to be girlfriend.. she was all out breath .She said she cant because we were cousin and she did nt wanted to be ashamed in her on eyes . Then i told to her forgave me if i hurt her, She said its okk.But after 1-2_ days she blocked me , wow i was damn shocked that i hurt her and it was my fault She blocked me ..After one week i create a new instagram acc and tried to contact her and it worked ..I asked her to forgive me for everything and had feeling guiltu since that day.She said it ok , it not you. She said her elder brother got her Instagram password and he checked her acc time to time to keep eye on her.Then i told her to unblock my main acc but she refused and said she cant sorry because her brother got her Instagram pass.I dont know guys she telling my the whole truth or she is only playing hard with me..I m totally confused about all the things m. I need your advice guys..I know lots of you guys think me as a asshole but i dont have any bad or negative feelings about her . one more questions i know her from childhood and we already met so many time but she was never so attracted to me ? Is it all because of NoFap ,maybe it can be NoFap attraction...#peace.....

 

Ya i agree with you buddy.I dont know is she really blocked me for some other reason or just playing with my emotions and all...cousin crush is normal as you said but i can nt keep up with her , you know my family will kill me for that..I dont want to be a psychopath... On whom people will laugh ....Anyway i found out that she already have a bf but whenever i asked her she said did nt have any bf and did nt want any .....I dont know whats wrong with her...By the way thanks for your advice...I really appreciate it....

 

Ya ya mate, i m not gonna do anything ..It will be a sin to have any kind relationship with your cousin.Anyway i thought she is kinda cool girl but she is totally weirdo type..you know in our indian culture its a sin to even think wrong about cousin or sister you know.Dont worry buddy i m not going to do anything wrong..Thanks for advice ...Really appreciate it man...

 

Yup man....I m trying my best to move on but i have strong feeling for her..Gotta control them up and move on ...ya you are right my family will rip my head off when they find out about all that shit...Hmm i m trying to find a girlfriend to keep my mind off from her....Thanks man for your great advice ..i do appreciate it.....

 

Ya man ....One day i will found my dream woman ..And will definitely forget about whole thing..Thanks man for advice..I really apprciate it..#Peace

 

Hey..Thanks man...I know its not a sin to have a little bit of attraction towarda cousin, its normal in this age..yaa i m mature enough to disclose this thing and move on im my life ahead..You are right man ,Everyone carries burden of emotion an thought even though they still judge other peoples..Anyway thanks for your advice buddy..Really appreciate it....#peace....

 

Yes brother.. I figured out that whole thing. It only cause of our hormones and nothing more..And she always been a good cousin to me since my childhood , i dont want any relationship with her..Its good for both of us forget the past incident and move on in life....Ya i told her to forgive me if i hurt her...And she always will be a good cousin to me..Anyway Thanks mann for you advice .Really appreciate it...#Peace

 

Ya ya brother ...I know this is not right and i m trying to get rid of the thing ..I dont love her anyway as you said i never been badly addicted to porn or masturbation ..I m currentt on my day 42 of NoFap challenge and gonna do it untill the day i die.. I did nt have negative feelings for her.It was just a mutual attraction our hormones and thats all .Anyway now we both clear all the controversy and we are living our life like real cousin...Thnks for your advice...I reallu appreciate it man...

 

Yes yes! Man hope so ...I misinterpreted her singnals you are right.She does nt like me in that way .. As i thought.. Anyway we clear out all the misunderstanding ..I apologized her for all my mistakes..She forgive me ...Now we are living like normal cousin..Thanks for your advice buddy..Really appreciate it..

 

What paragraph concept i did nt understand.... This is not even a wild stories bro....I know what i m doing..Thanks...For your advice....