Celibacy/Abstinence for Mental, Physical, and Spiritual health

So, I’m thinking that ejaculation in general, both during sex, and the vast majority from PMO, starting around the age of 13-14, has significantly damaged my health.

I am still overall in good health… but I have had a major health scare years ago, and I also struggle with hypochondria to this day - an inner anxiety about my health

At this point in time, I think a long term relationship with regular sex with a girl would end up killing me (literally)

So I think I have no alternative but strict, 100% celibacy for the foreseeable future… maybe even for a very long time

I think my choices now are either:

a) complete celibacy with no PMO/MO and regain my health

b) fail to achieve strict celibacy and not recover my health

My only option is option “a”

I have no choice but to be a celibate… perhaps if a girl I really, really like, my so called “dream girl” wants to hang out, then I can make a judgement call at that point

but for right now, it is strict celibacy for life … only time I would deviate from this would be if I found a dream girl

 

Thanks for the reply. Yea I think it is true that I have some co-dependency with thinking I need a sexual relationship with a girl or something.

But at this point, I am talking about the physical effects of ejaculation. I think my health has been hurt by ejaculating so many times in my life. Starting with the first ejaculation around age 13-14... and then after this, a lot of times doing PMO and also having sex with some girls in my life.. all of these ejaculations have taken a toll on my body - I don't think there is any doubt about this. I also had a health scare about 5 years ago that happened right after having sex. So I think at least for me, ejaculation is really bad for my body.

Also, PMO has hurt me psychologically as well. Each time masturbation is done it has lowered my self-esteem. Combine masturbation with porn, and that lowers self-esteem even further. Ejaculation also makes someone more tired.. so the combination of lowered self-esteem plus feeling more tired is a recipe for disaster.

I think it is literally "do or die" right now. If I do not completely quit all sexual activity immediately, I risk very bad suffering in the future. I will not have sex any time soon, not at all. I will also not ejaculate anymore either.

I have been doing fairly well in 2024 so far. However, last week, I did PMO 3 times. This was my worst week in 2024. I noticed a strained neck very soon after these PMO sessions - the same day actually. So I think last week caused me to inadvertently strain my neck! That is how dangerous ejaculation can be... at least for me

 

Thanks for your support, appreciate it