Linerider

I was so irritable. For days. Nothing helped. I went for walk in the rain. I did exercise, listening to calming music, everything. But nothing helped with that. The worse part, I did it once (watching soft p.) and I'm feeling still the same way.

Today I'm feeling better, thank God. Not perfect but better.

Recently I read someone saying he doesn't believe it when people report some benefits after reaching 30 days like deeper voice, better skin etc. I was surprised to read that. I personally feel I look better now after 7, I find something in my eyes that wasn't there when I was using. I'm finding myself handsome again.

But I feel really unwell to put it softly. Since a day or two, energy decreased, mental chatter, memories coming up, agitated, withdrawals basically. The only good thing is my elbows are feeling better today which gave me a little hope I will be able to get back to regular training in a month or two. Hopefully.

Today I felt way better mood wise. Not as much mental chatter. Also more productive than yesterday. Just really tired for some reason after 2-3 pm.

Woke up with both of my elbows hurting. So that made me not as happy. All my rehab is not going as well. But I still did my cardio workout and felt better after a cold shower. I felt memories coming up, found myself cursing at some people in my past haha But trying to keep my head up and smile. Today I felt I was more talkative so that's good.

Today I felt the day was unending. I felt not good, to give it a positive spin. Emotions coming up. Memories coming up.
I managed to exercise though which suprised me. Last night I could sleep bc of that, luckily I found 1-2 exercises that I can still perform that make me feel good despite elbow injury. Also today the cardio exercise was really good.

Brother I feel like what to do when I don't use phone ! Any suggestions?

@Heypleasehelpme that's something I am asking myself lately too, man. Especially since 4 days. Besides visiting people. I go for a walk. Also exercise at home or in the park. Watch a documentary on pc. Read a little. Tidy my room. I still feel not optimal but I think in a week or two I will be more like my old motivated self and read more books.

Today I was more productive and happy about that. At the same time I was confronted with the fact that I came short/didn't excel recently bc I was using. That ... I'm trying to not let that get to me; just continue is the motto. It will pay off.

Yes, absolutely. It helped with calming the thoughts that lead to acting out I'd say. I have noticed the thoughts came back sometimes when I fasted longer than that or right after eating something again. In the future I think I will make it a habit to fast 18-19 hrs. Maybe that's part of the solution for me? I hope so

Ok I got u !!!! But brother I feel that I need to more food to heal from deprived nutrients.

I felt like that too. But if you eat comfortably after let's say 5:20 pm (finishing everything at around 6), also taking multivitamins etc. then you can manage to fast till lunch, say 1 pm the next day. I don't always succeed with this, sometimes I even fast a full day, but yeah that's alright, we have to be understanding with ourselves, especially at the beginning weeks of recovery.

I did this with pluckeye and making a specific extension that blocks content required (I'm busy but check the windows blocker thread for details)

What are you reading?

My goal is to read up on artificial intelligence next :)

We do what works to distract ourselves. Well done. Do you reach for any particular type of food. Unfortunately, I too often reach for high sugar foods and I later regret it. It tastes good in the moment and hits the spot but it doesn't help my weight, which needs to come down. Gee whiz, I certianly have my work cut out for me.

Thanks, brother! Actually I just made myself two sandwiches :D Right now, I can get away with it though. I understand that with the weight though. Everyone has an area in their live where they want to improve. I myself fell in love with intermittent fasting last year, primarily bc of the mental benefits such as improved mood, that I lost a lot of weight.