I need advice. I’m a 21 year old female and my boyfriend is 23. Friends for 3 years, and We’ve been dating almost a year. We both have very high sex drives as well as a lot of sex. I’ve always known he watches tons of porn and he also jerks off, however he had told me that he sometimes watches porn and jerks off before seeing me so he can “last longer” if we have sex and also that he jerks off usually 1-3 times DAILY. Really? Before he sees me? What kind of nonsense is that? I had no issue about him masturbating and watching porn. UNTIL I REALIZED HOW MUCH HE DOES IT!! Now recently I had a gut feeling something was off and I snooped and found an app on his phone he was using to sext other women. It was a few of them. I read some of the convos I felt so sick + disgusted. I can’t even believe this bullshit. How could he talk to other women in this manner and then look me in the eye and tell me he loves me? When I confronted him it was a hot mess. he was literally bawling and saying he is sorry. He swore he wasn’t trying to hurt me and that he had felt guilty because he was doing this for a few week now. He was somewhat blaming it on his mental Health. Said that his depression makes him feel so useless and worthless that he seeks attention from others.( I give him all of the attention and love and care in the world but clearly its not enough.) I let him know how I felt about all of this and that I personally consider this virtual/emotional cheating. He said that he doesn’t know these women and had ZERO intention of ever doing anything sexual with anybody besides me and that I am more than enough for him. Why would he do it then? I asked him this question and he straight up told me he was sexting for validation and that it has nothing to do with me and that i’m everything he has ever wanted. Bullshit. I honestly feel disrespected that he would talk to other women in a sexual manner or seek sexual convos in general. The porn was one thing, but this is an entirely different story. Sexting is a form of cheating in my opinion. And I never thought this would happen to me. I always felt that my BF and I have a VERY good sexual relationship. I know how to please him, I talk to him sexually, send him pics when we aren’t around each other, he sends me pics, etc. we also have a very good relationship in general, not just sexually. Or so I thought? This has honestly shocked me. This all happened about 10 days ago. We’ve talked for hours and days about this all. He told me that he won’t ever do this again and that he loves me to death and that he will prove himself to me. He said he will stop watching porn and try not to masturbate. He told me that I can look at his phone whenever I wanted to and swore that I’m the only woman he wants sexually and romantically. I just don’t know if I believe him. I just don’t know what to do at this point. I’m very hurt and shocked by this. I can’t stop thinking about the convos I read. Him and I aren’t even talking right now. We decided to take some time apart. He is in denial about PA. I hate this shit so much. I’m gonna go insane, but I love him so much I can’t let go. What do I do?