Birthday gift, new goal, Start of a Journey.

I am tired of this old situation and I want to gain control over my bad habits. From now on I will start my journey to end this monster I've created for years. I will post every day from now on my current goal is NoFap for 14 days, and I limit my videogames to 2 hours for 2 weeks slowly reducing it. I do this for myself but if anyone is willing to take this journey with me, be my guest—journey before destination.

 

Day 3: Morning(11:41): These days, I've been working the whole day so I had no time for urges, etc, the second day was much better than the first one, but the first day I was feeling like hell, I can't afford to do this anymore, today urges are building up, but I know I can stay strong and meet my goal. I've also decided to stop entirely playing video games this is a big chance but if I work hard enough I can do it.

 

Day 4: 13:35: Yesterday I was able to hone my built energy and used it for work, I was vigorous and did my job quite well, I've reached the age of 23, and I am determined to change these habits for good, and I had pretty successful streaks before, and I know I can finish this demon for good!

 

Day 5 1:10 AM: The whole day has gone by, I am vulnerable since I have a lot of free time and my urges are rising up, this is probably the most important time to put resistance and fight, I believe that after this fight everything is gonna be easier. There is no way but the hard way!

 

DAY 6: Urges are strong, my day is lacking direction, I am vulnerable, my room is dark and I don't get sunlight I don't have the luxury, my mind is fogged and I can't concentrate, the urges are pushing me toward this direction, my mind is programmed to fall for this attacks, today I saw porn semi unintentionally, there was a post on Twitter, I thought I was safe there.... little did I know, after that, I've realized the whole system that is against me, these people want me to masturbate to their venom. I WON'T!

 

Day 3: Remember your promises. I've managed to quit video games, and now is time to slay this demon as well, I feel well and determined, and I am getting stronger I can feel it, I am 30% closer to my birthday, and I will be a new me after 23.!

 

Day 6: Feeling fine despite yesterday's slip, I had a small peek because a Twitter sex worker decided to bait people into her account, which is fine tho, I don't like that I watched her for maybe longer than I should, yet I feel far from relapsing, life is hard a lot of pressure from my family, it sucks that even people of your family are so bad, willing to do the most evil shit... I keep going I don't feel like I have any other option, is this or relapsing in my old vices which leads to nowhere really...Stay strong bro, You can always get lucky if you keep fighting.

 

Day 9: This morning started with a lot of energy, hopefully, I can make time to go to the gym.... I thank God that I made it through yesterday, Today I feel much better. I know these weeks will be tough, but I'm not going back to it, DFW videos are helping, and Praying also does. Stay Strong

 

Much love man , you and a few guys are inspiring me as well, i hope we all reach at least 90 days and after that much more

 

Day 10: Here is my mantra: " It gets tougher before it gets easier". "Time flies", Time really flies even tho at the moment doesn't feel like it, ill rather be porn free after 1month, what is the big deal if time flies anyways right? Hanging in there I feel like I am out of the woods for the moment but who knows... Also, I am proud of my self, yesterday I had some emotional thing going on, but instead of relapsing I hung in there... Sleep is good enough to regulate your emotions I don't need venom.

 

Day 11: I am sleeping a lot these days, I am not proud but not bad I guess, Meanwhile I am getting further and further from this Addiction I am happy!

 

Day 17: Morning Woods on a constant basis they are kinda cool and annoying at the same time, I am finding myself wanting to look at porn more than having sex I really dislike it, I will reboot and get back to being a normal human, the urges to watch some videos are big, it is somewhat insane to me the different rationalizations that my brain gives to me in order to indulge, I won't let him convince me, if I stay strong for enough time they go away, they come back live waves but it's ok I know they will go away someday... Think about your future self you don't want to be a guy who masturbates to a fake reality...

 

Day 24 close to 25: 24 days and 19hours, I have failed today, I really need to change things...., I'm proud of this streak, This failure started with curiosity, I've managed to trick myself too looking at the website.... then I've indulged for 30min, after that my addicted brain took over, That being said I could been much stronger and not do this... Anyway I know next year I will drop this for good. I need to start working a routine that makes this less likely... Might turn off my PC this year... only distractions...

 

Day 2

 

Lets get clean this year man, <3

 

Day 4 : Why do we doubt our decisions when we are on nofap?, Ive been telling my self that i feel this way or another, what we should realy doubt is our condition of an addict... Weve been raised like childs to doubt about our decisions and not to about other things that we should

 

Day 6: My next 4 days are free from work, this is when i struggle the most when i have nothing to do... I know the fact but dont know how to react to it... I will try my best