Asexuality? Extreme Porn Addiction.

You're still young. Stop looking at porn, and stop fantasizing about strange stuff, and I think you'll come back. Many, many others have.

 

Have to go without porn man. You love women, but only the ones on screen. Need to get away from them.

 

I understand that exactly. At one point, I thought I was gay bc i liked transexual porn but it was because I wanted to see a man masturbate like me yet this man should be close to something I wanted- a woman. But it's an illusion. Your still straight and not beyond repair. Trust me you can still recover your masculinity or femininity and live a great life. Don't fall for the lie

 

@redlittleboot:
Hey buddy,
I understand you're afraid, it's only normal, it's ok...

You will heal by just staying away from this crap on the screen, really ! You will!

Give it some time, 3 - 4 months and you should see a big improvement, trust the process my friend.
Your brain will rewire and you feel better again and be attracted to "real life" girls.
Just be patient now, and stay away from pmo the best you can !

 

Hi redlittleboot, I feel similar about myself, except that I'm 35 years old, so imagine how much better off you are than me! If you're worried that you're a coward with women or can't connect, then that's a sign that you also need to work on that too. From what I understand, these are skills that you can learn and practice at, like anything else. For me, I think part of unwiring my attraction to porn, also involves actively rewiring my attraction to real world women. I am having to learn how to do this, as the attraction to porn has become second nature to me. I actually see rewiring my attraction to actual women as something that I HAVE to do, as part of my recovery from porn use. It is going to be a slow process for me, and it is going to involve doing a lot of things that are out of my comfort zone. It's uncharted territory for me. I don't mean seeing real women as sex objects, or as replacements for porn. I mean actually allowing myself to feel sexual thoughts and feelings toward real women, and expressing myself more sexually in some way (I don't know how yet)
Of course, another option could be renouncing porn and sex altogether, but I don't know if that's possible or desirable

 

Life is a battle, it consists of many failures and accomplishments. We struggle to become better. You have taken a further step, you have had the courage to try and we are proud of you for trying. You will get better and things will be better, faith is kind with the ones who don't give up and fight for what they want. You are 18 years old, you are young and you have a beautiful path ahead of you!

Here is a quote that always hits me when I read it: " a master has failed more times than a beginner has tried. "

 

You're exactly who this site is for. You'll get it. Just gotta try. I'm already feeling better and I'm only 9-10 days in.

For the self esteem thing... OK based on your avatar there's a particular site I believe you must have been visiting... A certain, shall we say, free-for-all message board? I've been there a lot and while I don't like to judge, I usually end up leaving that place feeling pretty shitty. Loads of negativity and just general shittiness all over that place, and the porn sections are full of people who have become super jaded to porn, so it's full of weird, gross stuff. It's a pretty sad place really. I don't wish to judge it but it might be a good suggestion to maybe not hang out there? Again I'm only making that assumption based on your avatar, and obviously you do whatever you like, but at least try not to visit their porn sections like /s/ and /gif/. I hope you aren't offended by this suggestion, if you are then my apologies. I totally understand and respect if you don't agree.

 

I assume you're talking about Dark Souls Remastered. I'm a console gamer so Remastered was really great for me! Constant 60fps, Blighttown not being a slideshow, playable on my PS4. So I'm pretty happy with it. But if you're a PC gamer I get why you'd call it a cash grab since it could be modded to have those things already and the old version got taken down. But I love to get away from my computer when I'm not working so I use my PlayStation.

Anyway, it's against the rules to go too far off topic, so I'll add some more to this - Good to hear you don't go there so often anymore. I loved the idea of a zero censorship (within the law and reason) site but that doesn't mean it's a good place to go for the old mental health XD

 

Hey, good job on at least trying with this girl! Earlier you called yourself a coward, well a coward wouldn't have tried! So you're making progress, give yourself credit for what you did right, and learn from your mistakes to make the next time better

And good that for you avoiding porn is becoming easy! Keep it up!

 

Yes this is very, very true! It is happening to me!

Yep, we're not alone! No I won't leave you hanging! You'll be OK!

 

I am asexual but I do like the idea of porn of specific genre. I am staying off porn and masturbation because I truly want to respect women more, especially me wife. Stay OP