I'm in again. This is 2nd life. Day 0 on Hard Mode. I will do it this time. STAY STRONG. STAY POSITIVE.
day 3..had a relaxing weekend with friends and family. It felt like a good starting point having fun. Not worried about pmo. Remember we are not perfect, but we can set up better habits in our lives.
Guys yesterday I relapsed. When ever I relapse, I relapse multiple times ie I masterbate multiple times in the same-day. Today day 0 is coming to an end. I am losing hope once again that I can't make it out of this addiction. I am trying to change my lifestyle but in weak moments I lose myself and relapse. My face is getting bad day by day after my big streak ended. I don't want to get into miserable life. I want very very better life. When ever I relapse I lose my motivation for better life most of the times. I hate this addiction like anything.
With every relapse there is the opportunity of newness, of healing....your healing will not begin when you achieve 90 days. It has started already, when you came to the realization that there was a problem....never give up my brother, because with every day you spend without it, your brain is developing understanding and healing.