This commitment is a process where you get to know yourself and figure out what kind of life you want and what kind of person you can be. You don't have to fear your urges or what might happen because that's all part of the process of personal growth and self discovery. Whether or not you stumble along the way, you've already made your choice to have a better life and nothing can stop you.
Thank you for sharing that resource. I watched the short video and see where it can be useful in resolving ambivalence.
Day 10: Done. Day 11: In progress... EDIT: Holy cow; I just realized I've reached 200-day mark. I think I've deserved something special today, so... Excuse me Miss, could you please make that espresso as a double?
Guys i replapsed Was on my 16th day Had to study for an exam and i couldnt focus. Was getting too distracted by the urges. Couldnt go to the library for studying today so was all alone and then i was like lemme just get a glimse of something and i will be right back. But instead i started watching P. It felt really bad but this was my best streak since many months. I will get right back at it.
day 0 , I come from a relapse, after long streaks. Now urges are strong but I accept them as part of life
My first milestone .... my new personal record till date......DAY 30/90. I have made my commitment for this streak a little more serious than ever before. The day i started this streak I gave up my smartphone. I started using a keypad phone which has no internet. I locked my smartphone away and use it for only few minutes after every 2...3 days. I need whatsapp for my college purpose or else i would have given up smartphone completely. I have been learning from the relapses of my past 2 year trails. And every relapse converged to only one thing SMARTPHONE. These 30 Days are smoother than i have expected. But eliminating external triggers is just a temporary escape. I need to master my thoughts. I should have control and command over my thoughts and urges or else i may relapse in future. Smartphone is necessary in my life because the modern world runs on it. Whether its smartphone or not anyway i should be control of my urges. I planning to meditate and get control over my life and thoughts. This is my next step MEDITATION.
Interesting. Thanks for sharing this. After last relapse I have concluded I cannot trust myself with social media and most of the apps on my phone. I’ve deleted facebook, instagram, twitter, youtube. The last three all allow nudity and have porn on them. I have found that out the hard way through relapses. However, one can’t just delete the apps, you also have to block the websites. There is still youtube.com website, twitter.com website, instagram website...all of these need to be blocked for me also through the content filter. The desire to see attractive women is just too strong sometimes and I give in and that leads down the dark path. Meditation is also key to this. We must take action(meditation) to change our thought life and be able to guide our thoughts to healthy thoughts to discourage obsessive thinking of sexual thoughts. At least I do. Meditation turns off the obsessing, however it takes practice. Good luck today brothers.
