42 days - Success or non-success

Hello,

I have gained a lot of strenght by reading all these motivational success stories of you fellow fapstronauts and so - after a pretty successfull streak by myself - I decided to take part in this phenomenon and also ask some questions.

Be carefull! Long text and bad english is ahead!

My Background:

I am 21 yo, austrian, male and have been fapping pretty much since I have been 7 years old. I pretty soon discovered porn as a more intense way of masturbating. Like all of you I started with the softest soft porn avaiable and pretty soon progressed into more hardcore stuff, until I got into really disgusting videos at the age of 16.
Normally my day constisted of min. 5-10 sessions of intense fapping.

Furthermore I slowly developed some terrifying psychological deseases. I got severe social anxiety and depression very early on which got worse every day since I found YOU - the nofap community.

Reboot

So my reboot sadly wasn't a straight way to the top - as many of you would understand, more so it was the most difficult task of my life to reach this milestone.
It took me nearly a year to get to where I currently am and I am very proud of myself, although when I started this journey I imagined myself to be much more progressed than I am now.....

So my first week of this 42 days streak was pretty much like shit. I had a very very bad mood, couldn't do shit around the house (not even brushing my teeth) - overall I felt a big depression crushing me down so that I cannot move.
Everytime when I saw a women (attractive or not) my whole body started to vibrate and shake following with a cold, depressing feeling overwhelmed my heart instantly.
I never really got rid of this feeling, but it slowly gets less intense as my reboot progresses.

The remaining weeks I cannot summerise very well. I think I am in flatline until now and still am. At times I got really depressed and stressed out by anything and sometimes I felt an overall good feeling which origin I could not really determine.

So now I am here, writing my post and living day by day rather unhappy but in a hopeful and optimistic mood for the future.
But still my biggest fear - Social Anxiety - I could not solve, yet..... And I am starting to feel, that noFap won't solve my problem or contribute to solving it.

I have been starting many new things since the start of my journey - Meditation, Workout, Jogging, etc. .... but the problem for me is that those activities won't do any good for me regarding my social anxiety which remains my biggest burden.

So I am writing here for some motivational words or advices to improve my problem... Maybe someone had similar problems and got out of it somehow!?!?


Thanks for reading