40's and just now willing to surrender

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by hope4now, Feb 26, 2017.

  1. hope4now

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    I'm all ears brother. Obviously I don't know what to do.
    I think I'm doing SAA tomorrow but I need everything I can do and do it.
     
  2. Hey dude you can do it! To beat this addiction though you have to believe you can. Try not to think of it as not masturbate ping but instead take away this weakness and replace it with a strenth. Workout, learn a language, do something that will make you feel accomplished afterwards. I believe in you, it's time to start believing in yourself.
     
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  3. hope4now

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    Thank you brother! I'll change my attitude from here forward and trust God and you all and join in a new life. I can do it one day at a time. Best to you.
     
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    @hope4now , I'm really sorry for your relapse my friend, it's always shitty when that happens. And now I am going to be candid, I knew from the last time this thread was in full swing that you were going to relapse. How did I know? Because you do not have a strong why statement, or practice a porn recovery plan. I don't know of anyone without these 2 attributes who goes porn free for too long.
    A lot of people on NoFap are going to tell you that all you need to do is "practice self control really hard" and "find new hobbies", in order to go porn free. That's bullshit. And the people who are doling out this advice are not porn free themselves. You need a why statement and a plan. Period. I'd love to point you in that direction if it's truly freedom that you are looking for.
     
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  5. hope4now

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    Yes I need direction and support. I can't let pride and ego get in the way anymore. Please share your experience strength and hope. I'm dying.
     
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    So far so good today. Going to SAA in a bit. Surrender to win.
     
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    Day 5 tomorrow. But for the grace of God. Need more positive action!
     
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    Hey @hope4now , I was just thinking about you. How has your sobriety been going?
     
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    Its going good. Day 5 and in surrender. I need to implement more constructive activity to replace the addiction. My energy and spirit have already improved and I don't feel as if I'm bleeding to death and out of control but I know all that comes back once I act out. My diet is clean and I'm doing 12 step meetings but at night I'm alone and I don't watch TV and don't have a lot I'm interested in reading. I may pick up something on gardening or something low stress. I have no desire to work out. I'm lethargic and don't give a fuck about that most moments. Least I'm free from processed food and sugar. Peace!
     
  11. hope4now

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    You Ok? Day 5 here.
     
  12. Resolved Oregonian

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    Glad to hear you are doing 12 step. Good job. Are you a part of a regular fellowship? And can you elaboratr of what you mean by "surrender"?
     
  13. hope4now

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    Yes I'm new to this area 12 step but familiar as I haven't drank in nearly 19 years. Surrender to a program of healthy action and trust a loving God and be open to fellowship with other nofap brothers in hopes we keep free and be supportive.
     
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    What a refreshing view! I love how inspirational and supportive people are on this site!
     
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    It has been very helpful to me and I hope to be more support and encouragement than what I did prior. New beginning. Best to you!
     
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    DAy 9 and I'm doing fine. Some anxiety about not having plans for weekend so loser tapes are rolling. I'm my biggest enemy.
     
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    So far so good. Slipped on food but tomorrow is new day. Nofap strong. God can so I think I'll get out of the way. Peace.