Day 124/365 I was watching this video from Pysch2Go yesterday: 10 Signs You're Falling in Love And this is a comment from Fjodor McNudel (forth from the top comments): 1. You feel weird watching porn. That's it,bye. What a simple, accurate and essential comment this is.
Day 52/365. I was already committed to 120 days, but I’m pretty sure my divorce is going to take more than that, and I want to stay as clean and sober as I can during this process. I need all the positive energy I can get, and I know PMO only feeds my negative side.
Finally i could insert a picture here correcly, haha ha ,yes i did it. It is funny. Day 6/365 I took a cold shower Fasting today (By the way Mahatma Gandhi always was used to fast when he was sick) Anyway,I had some p flash backs I had some fantasies since my mind was used to produce them,it was a destructive habit of my mind that i didn't aware of. [Because our brain and body will produce new things related to the things that we feed it. You can look Elon Musk, i think his mind produces new things that is related to the books that he read.] But those was for seconds and i got better at tuning my attention toward my new identity my goals and my schedule Today i feel the rush of energy in my body and i should guide it and push it into a productive way. I feel good about being here in this thoughtful ,responsive and great community. The another thing that came in my is that consuming drugs or turning toward Fantasies and also watching P or even go toward wrong place and wrong people arises from the fact that one does not accept and satisfy with his or her own situation, condition or circumstances.Once Abbas Kiarostami ,the great director,quoted" imagination is a way to run away from the reality. I think we should always remember that running away from realities toward cigarette or drugs and Porn is just get the situation worse ,the problems will increase and one's body get weaker. so it is wise and prudent to cautiously calm ourselves in tough situation ,then find the problems and solve our problems and remove burdens in out path toward becoming out greatest and hte best version of ourself and build a reputation both in our inner world and in outer world. Overall, i feel better in compare to the past that my mind was not free from these fake fantasies and also my body was not at present moment beside my general body feeling was terrible. As days go by i feel like my mind and body is becoming one and i feel a better harmony between them. i am eager to know about your changes both mentally and physically as days go by. Have a great day guys .
Day 6- My urges have taken a complete vacation for the last 2 days. I wonder whether its a good thing
Day 125/365 Today I was actually bad at time management, tomorrow I must consider how to use time and fix it. Also, I want to share this video from Jordan Taylor: Waking up at 5AM is changing my life I've often become sleepy at 4 to 6 PM these days, after coming home, and I ended up fall asleep, then I woke up at 4 to 5 AM. If it's going to be one of my habits, it'll be an amazing one, surely.