You will get there again. I of course have a long way to go but one thing that I think has been very helpful to me is meditation. I've been using Jeff Warren's 30 days for beginner. I just relisten to them and practice. The key seems to be not much more than showing up consistently. I think it has helped me stay away from auto-pilot mode where my brain gets hijacked. I feel better at noticing what my thoughts are and making conscious decisions. Keep at it man.
Relapse again. At the moment I find porn so attractive that I am wondering if I actually want to quit .
I'm sorry. I lived something similar about 11 months ago. I relapsed after 7 months clean and spent a week doing M and watching P almost every day and there were moments when I no longer wanted to quit. But it wasn't the life I wanted to live! It wasn't life at all... Consider if is that the life you want to live, a life of slavery. Consider what you really want when you're sober. It's hard, but trying to quit is worth it. Best wishes
Checking in. Things are going well. I'll be out of town for the rest of the month which will be nice. Keep going everyone.
I am day 161 in a row of no PMO and no sex. I am a 40 year old hopeless porn junkie and a relationship addict. Recovery after 40 is tough. I feel so silly for not having found sobriety sooner. I have been around people in recovery from P addiction since 2008. And nevertheless I missed all sorts of chances to recover. I commit to sobriety for another 24 hours. May God help me.
Day 131 Good luck! Have a happy travel Oh, why hopeless? I think recovery from any addiction is though independently of age... Maybe it has more influence how long and how intensely one fed the addiction? Better late than never. The important thing is you are doing so now! May God help you/us