35 and Older Accountability Group

Cheers! Just got to keep on keeping on.

 

Reset

 

Muchas gracias..

 

Functional strength training - running - weight lifting - body weight resistance exercises - tennis

 

Día 0
No vi P pero tuve una conversación que me llevo a M

 

Reset today.
Intervals are getting longer so I guess that's progress.

 

Day 05

Greetings to all!

I feel bad today because my wife and I didn't have O last night, haven't had it for 14 days because my wife has low libido.

There is no desire to do MO yet, but I am trying to be strong by God's strength.

Thank you all for your support and may God bless us and give us the strength to move forward.

 

And for those who had reset, don't give up, keep moving forward to freedom!

 

I was doing really terrible the last few months. Playing video games all the time, and watching porn in the evening increasingly more. At the end it was just from 21:00 edging and edging until I really had to go to bed. So much stimulation right before bed doesn't make one sleep.

I couldn't focus on work at all anymore. I became a zombie during the day. I couldn't speak to anyone anymore. I had to really do my best to come across naturally. I noticed my reacting time was going down. I couldn't switch focus anymore to things. I barely got any work done.

At some point I was like, yeah, it feels great in the moment, but the whole day was just a terrible grind to wait until the kids went to bed and I could get at it again. Do I want to have a lousy day and an exiting evening, or a great day and maybe a boring evening? Well it's an easy choice, because it might seem like a net neutral, but the first option will gradually destroy my life in the long rung, and the seconds will gradually improve it. So it's a win-win.

I changed my routine around. Going to bed early. And waking up early. My morning routine needed some improvements anyway. And the evenings are always my challenge. Now I'm actually eliminating the evening, and adding a whole lot of time early in the day. I just got this started, I will keep you updated.

 

I wish you not to give up and be strong. I know it's hard for you, but you have a family, do it for them and everything will work out for you.

May God help you!

 

Fell hard today.
Feeling frustrated and ashamed. I hate starting over all the time.
Sick and tired of all this.

 

Reset here…job has been so busy and stressful lately it hasn’t helped. Hope that will improve soon as we are getting a new staff member.

 

Be strong and don't give up! We all with you!

 

I wish you with all my heart that you succeed in facing the temptations!

May God bless and help you!

 

Day 06 without MO

Greetings to all!

Today I feel better and I don't want to do MO. Thank you very much everyone for your support!

2 Corinthians 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

 

Day 1 down.
Been too busy to get myself in trouble. I'm exhausted but it feels good too.

 

Day 07

Greetings to all!

First week without MO. The desire to do M is not, which is good.

I stay on the narrow path and with God's strength and your support I move forward - to freedom, to be free from MO forever!

May God bless us and give us the strength to move forward!

 

Relapsed this morning.
I feel like somewhere inside, don't want to get better.
I hate this. I want to be a better person and a better husband but there's a part of me I can't stand and I'm having trouble accepting.
This is making me have conflict with my wife whom I love very much and do not want to hurt.
I need to make changes so I can stop.
Reset today.

 

Keep fighting, don't give up, get up and move forward!

If you really love your wife very much with all your heart, it is very wonderful, think about her so as not to hurt and you will succeed in facing the beast, so that he will remain weaker and weaker until he leaves you.