It's difficult to see some of my brothers here struggling at the moment, but am super inspired by your honesty and determination. It's an honor to be part of this community. I made it through last week's emotional turmoil without PMO. Work anxiety continues and I'm not feeling very motivated, which is terrible timing because I really need to be motivated to get through the next few months. Urges are kicking up, probably a residual effect of last week and the ongoing work situation. After 50 days, I feel like I have the tools and the commitment to ride them out. Can't get complacent, though. This week: 2 days exercise 4 days meditation
Check in - had another slip but I'm going to avoid the chasers this time. It was related to stress and my stinkin' thinkin' that my co-workers are out to get me.
Checking in. Things are going well on the PMO front still, a bit more challenging as I feel my sexual energy is higher. My tactic is just not to engage, just to basically ignore it. For so long any stirring in my body I would act on by using PMO. That is not an option anymore, well it is but I have made it now so it is not. The key for me is not to go there mentally. I have to remind myself I have had more than enough PMO for multiple life times, it holds nothing for me. Its a lie and one I am determined not to let it get its hooks in me.
Hi all, Since 2 months ago this has been more complicated than usual, having frequent falls. I don't know what happens. Before February I had 7 months clean, but during this 2 months my longest streak was 17 days, and sometimes I haven't even been able to reach a week... Today is my day 1 again.
check reset Zero getting better, ill get this down soon. It really is like toxic and it require time and insane will power to battle through just to flush it out. Keep going through these cycle is the only way to breakthrough, i understand that its painful with everything thats happening around me but I can tell there a positive light that makes me feel really good every time.
Well I made it 24 hours so that's a start, even if I relied heavily on sleep to past a lot of the time. Also looked at some psub stuff to avoid something more explicit. Been having strong urges that feel compulsive and sexual thoughts are at the forefront. Honestly wonder how many days I can string together. Would like to go the entire month of May, then onward, but we shall see.
Checking in, day 10. Happy with this for now, the first few days are always the hardest. The next challenge for me usually happens around days 18-21, but I'll be ready for it this time
