4/30 done. Cold shower 3/5 done. Feeling a lot of urges and intrusive negative thoughts right now. Worried about next week, as I’ll be fully alone for the first time in my Separation. (Temporarily living with parents, but they’re going on vacation.) My mind is already planning this relapse binge. But I don’t want to participate. I want to stop it before it starts. Also, worried for today, as when these “future temptations” have taken my focus in the past, they’ve led straight to relapsing at the first available opportunity (rather than waiting for the future-planned opportunities). Praying for strength. I need this. I need a reboot. My life has been ruined by this struggle. I cannot continue putting my recovery off for momentary dopamine to soothe. I have to find a way through this. Praying I make it through today. Any encouragement would be helpful.
6/30 days done. Tomorrow I will have broken my record since months if not years. I am very confident to achieve that! Yesterday I felt the strongest cravings during this reboot, but I could direct my thoughts to other things early, relax my body and get away from the dangerous track.
Relapsed yesterday. So today is day 0/30 for me. Also skipped my cold shower yesterday, so I need to get back on that too: still at 3/5 cold showers for the week. About my relapse and struggle to reset:
