3/30 done. Cold shower 2/5 done. Feeling really down and tempted. My wife just sent me her written “things wrong with our relationship” letter yesterday. I know I’m doing this for me. And I know that I have to do this for me to have any future with my wife or anyone else. But when the emotional feedback at the moment is so discouraging… it makes me feel like this is not worth it. And that porn is just easier. And it IS easier. But that doesn’t make it good. It makes it insidious. Praying for strength today.
4/30 days done. I continue to feel higher levels of energy. Urges were a bit stronger than the days before, but still manageable without big effort.
day 88 after getting too much urges to see porn controlling my nerves and getting busy in my studies. And keep progressing.