Thanks for the encouragement slitebg. Hardest part right now is actually coming on here and checking in each day. Have printed out some encouragement and hung it up next to the computer, but just generally trying to stay clear of the computer at the moment. Sooooo, Day 0 of this challenge again.
No problem sharing because hopefully someone else will gain from my experience. SO is extremely hurt and upset, because this has been an ongoing issue for many years that I have been able to hide from her until hopefully my last DDay. She is tired of all the lying and time spent on porn and not her and our children. Hours of my day would be spent edging. I don't blame her, she has every right to feel how she does. Not sure if we will be able to save 22+ years of marriage. I am going to try but the decision is hers.
My urges took control and I cracked on day 8. Ashamed that after all this time I still can't beat the challenge but that doesn't mean I'm giving up. I will get past this