0 peekings in 90 days. Let's do this.

It's not a bad idea to reset by 5-10 days if you peek, to keep motivated I guess. But I think, in my case, my mind would tell me: "Well, if I peek it will be very bad, but I will only reset 10 days, so it's fine somehow, I can deal with it." If I keep the promise to reset it totally, it will be persuasive enough.

Maybe it's because my ultimate enemy is the peeking, it's the curiosity and that brief act. The PMO succession is pretty much in control now.

 

Everything is great again in terms of energy and wellbeing.

But I wonder when I will stop having porn cravings, I still have the thoughts: "go peek because porn is so good and you will enjoy it your entire life, it would be so nice to collect everything".

Obviously I know it's a damn lie and a trap (and I won't do it). But it would be great to know that these thoughts will end someday...

In your experience, when did you stop having these "porn" thoughts? :/

 

Day 25 without a single peeking:

I'm having a bad time. I have read something, it's totally what is happening to me now:

https://husbandhelphaven.com/porn-addiction-withdrawal-walkthrough/

I had the seven-day pitfall as always, with intense cravings etc., but after day 20 I started feeling the same.

Not only that, I have now low energy, the zombie state, worse focus than previous days, the SOCIAL AWKWARDNESS OMG, I felt so confident the previous days and now I have taken steps backwards... The insomnia these previous days was so irritating... And the sex drive is so high that I feel like I'm going to explode.

This is the real way, the 0 peeking way is the real thing and that is why I have reset the counter from 72 to 25 (days without a single peeking).

According to the previous web, 60 days is the milestone to feel a lot better regarding these symptoms.

My brain must be rewiring itself right now, it's the only explanation for these brutal symptoms.

We must keep going...

 

This is gold:

https://husbandhelphaven.com/porn-addiction-symptoms/

"

• After the first time your brain makes Delta Fos-B, it’ll keep producing more with each cumulative porn use.
• Over time, multiple layers of Delta Fos-B accumulate inside your brain’s “pleasure center”, the Nucleus Accumbens.
• As it builds up, Delta Fos-B creates a compulsive response in your brain that makes you feel like you need Dopamine.

(...)
The more Delta Fos-B that’s stored in your brain’s Nucleus Accumbens, the stronger your compulsion for Dopamine will be. This process explains where your porn cravings come from and why they grow stronger over time.

(...)
In most cases, Delta Fos-B will stick around in your brain for about eight weeks. However, every time you’re exposed to porn, you reset that timer AND you make your cravings stronger than they were before.
Scientists still don’t understand everything about Delta Fos-B or the neurochemical process behind addiction. All we know for sure is that it takes a minimum of eight weeks for your brain to clean itself and go back to normal.
Fun Fact: The younger you are, the longer it will take your brain to cleanse Delta Fos-B. If you’re younger than 30, it could take up to 16 weeks before your brain is back to normal.

"

So I've learnt that there is still Delta Fos-B on my brain. I keep having cravings and I feel like I'm not so sensitive to dopamine yet.

And best of all, only 1 more month to feel a lot better. Or maybe 3 more months, I don't know, but I'm starting to understand why a relapse is so serious and why I keep having cravings and low energy.

This has to be the definitive one.

 

How are you doing man?


Day 33 without a single peeking:
Now my cravings are not so intense, energy and wellbeing have improved a lot too. But I still have very brief thoughts of wanting to watch content. In that moment, I think about how much it has improved my life, and that it would make it the worst if I come back, plus it's only 10 seconds of pleasure and I always regret it, and it's enough to keep it under control.

 

Yeah, this explains a lot. And it helps to visualize what is happening in the brain, and what needs to be done. If we can clean all the Delta Fos-B, we will be much closer to recovery of the brain.

 

Day 36 without a single peeking:
Intense cravings are here again. So honestly XD... I'm going to assume that they will be there sporadically till the end of the process. Maybe it's my high sex drive, but I hope the cravings improve by day 90. If not, probably I will start doing MO once a week or so, to regulate it.

I don't know how often I should do it when the process is done, but I don't imagine living my life having these cravings all the time, to be honest.

 

Thank you, man I think this was unimaginable a year and a half ago, when I started discovering that all the bad things I had suffered my entire life (very low energy, anxiety, social fears, low confidence, poor attention, etc.) were caused by porn.

In fact, some months ago I was commited to let it go, but anyway I kept falling into temptation, doing small peeking now and then, and then relapsing totally.

I understood that I only have to eliminate peeking and I'll be fine, and I wrote here that if I did ONE small peeking, I would reset the counter and I would tell you about it.

This was a bit of social pressure for me, and I guess it worked because of that, partly.

But I keep feeling temptation everyday. Not only to peek, but to relapse entirely.

I really hope that you find your way too We can do it!!

 

I have relapsed.

Turns out that my testosterone levels are really high and I'm having a lot of moles in my skin in the last months, in fact I created this post (https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...this-happened-to-you-in-your-recovery.357923/) but nobody could tell me if it was related (I have read that moles can appear because of hormonal changes), so I decided that I would MO once a week to regulate those levels. I did MO the 19th of April.

2 days later, I suffered the 'chaser effect' as we call it. Porn cravings as hell, and I relapsed 21st and 22nd of April. I did meditation immediately after, because that was my rationalization to watch porn, that I could avoid the negative effects doing meditation and exercise (wrong).

I couldn't sleep until a few hours after I went to bed, it was like I had an 'awake' switch on my brain. The day after my energy was lower than the other days. A lot of brain fog too. So, no, meditation didn't do shit, maybe it mitigated it a bit, but not enough.

I have promised myself that I will throw away my watch if I peek again, it may seem stupid, but I really like my watch and I'm convinced that I would throw it away if I 'porn'. This is a metaphor too, I would throw away my 'time'.

I will see the effects of MO once a week, let's see if skin moles stop appearing. If I notice negative effects, I will do it every 10-15 days, and if I keep noticing negative effects like bad energy, maybe I will have to live with a lot of skin moles.

I will keep updating.

 

One thing: meditation is awesome. I can really say that it improves the brain in a lot of aspects.

This was gold too:
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...n-is-the-exact-opposite-of-meditation.245748/

But obviously it's not so magical that it can erase the immediate negative effects of PMO. That was my stupid rationalization.