work.in.prog.

2/2 that being said, I really don't want to update on here until I reach 14 days no 0 to porn, wish me luck...

1/2 I think it's important to step away & not think so much about getting a streak, it's really about slowly making positive changes...

So I actually ended up failing monday, & peeked a bit again today unfortunately. For now, i'm only resetting my counter if I PMO.

Peaked/edged very briefly today, but did not fail, it’s day 7, let’s keep going..

It's crazy how depressed I feel when i'm not engaging in PMO, the lack of dopamine is really getting to me. More meditation time is needed.

failed again.. I need to stop peeking. I always fall into that trap.

Had a dream a few nights ago that told me "Want to improve in all aspects of life? Just stop cumming." That's basically all there is to it.

Back to square one.. the edging was just too much.

I feel like because I O’d only once in the last 12 or so days I’m more calm & collected, I’ve been edging still here & there but its a start

Journal 10.1: Anyways, here’s to moving forward, clean slate of no viewing or edging.

Journal 10: had sex & O’d with my gf last night, which I feel wasn’t as exciting as it could have been due to my edging this past weekend.

2.1/2 I’ve also deactivated my camsite account, which also doesn’t delete right away, I know they’re doing that on purpose.. very sketch.

2/2 I’m annoyed that you can’t immediately delete an email, it takes 30 days, it’s tied to a camsite account & I’m trying to cut all access.

1/2 I’ve been practically edging all weekend, haven’t came since April 1st but it’s a slippery slope, blocking on my phone again.

Unfortunate setback! I recommend the book "Your Brain On Porn" if you haven't already read it, offers a few more tools and helps understand the brain mechanics

Journal 6: This week did not go as planned, relapsed a few times, including today, unfortunately on a camsite... resetting my counter.

Journal 5: The 30th i'll reach 7 days, have to reach it, no exceptions. i'll report back.

Journal 4: Another thing to try; grayscale your phone/computer, it helps make the imgs less appealing & boring.

Journal 3 (final for the day): I really want to achieve 30 days so I can post in the success stories thread... so close yet so far.

Journal 2: I HIGHLY recommend meditation, been keeping up with it these past few weeks & it's helping me feel less like shit each time i O.