Another fail. Just caught myself checking what kind of easily available medicines could kill you. I'm scared.
Feel depressed and been having thoughts about my own death and its aftermath. I think the only thing that keeps me going is my son.
For one who's had stories of a dead brother at 12 and diseased children, I sure don't want another infant death in my life. i'm afraid I'll screw this father thing over enormously. I'm afraid of the ruins I'll be left in if this ever happens. I guess that'll be the end of me.
At least you’re keeping away from the most damaging part of the addiction. That takes a lot of discipline!
So, I lost track on how long I've abstained from porn, but I'm pretty sure I didn't use it since 15/07, so I'm setting my counter from there
I said no masturbation & no orgasm. I failed that, but no porn on the last 34 days. I guess that's simply my old goal.
Dude you killed it!! Not yourself! Don’t binge and carry on like nothing happened. You’re more than fine.
I'm having strong urges. Every time I think about my daughter and my wife - she's 4 months pregnant now, and it goes away... thanks, girl!
I'm suspecting of tendonitis on both forearms. Right arm is on brachiradialis, left arm some finger tendon. Need them to masturbate.
That´s a nice message! Wish you, your wife and your future little baby much health and nice, peaceful passage through pregnancy! =)
