Starting my 18th day now. I have not been able to say that statement very many times over the last 2 decades.
Thanks! Starting my 18th day now. This is HUGE for me. Starting to feel like I am going to make some real changes this time.
I acted out this evening. Fairly short lived, but still. I must realize I cannot do any searches, no matter how harmless I think it is.
Still here, but trying to balance how often I visit here. This place is great, but sometimes it creates triggers.
Page 101 in your journal. A true giant in the community. Glad to call you a friend. I trust you and respect you.
I can see that leaving here is fine, but only when I have the ability to stand on my own. I do not have that, so I am back.
Thank you for your support and your note! With you on definitely looking for better answers in faith. Have a good week :)
Hang in there, brother. New week. New Focus. Always something new to appreciate in life besides the burdens of existence.
12 days is good to see on you. Keep hanging in there, man. Don't count. Just be you -- the good one :)
Hi NF. I'll give some thought to your questions that you posted on my journal and post in the coming days. Always an inspiration to find your replies on my posts.
Is that you, NF? I barely recognize you with your new and improved avatar. Very eye-catching! Definitely an improvement. Thank you for the kind words on the journal today. I'm so happy the posts resonate. Keep punching, NF. You WILL achieve your goals.
Hi @John McClean , that is my new avatar. It actually did not come out the way I intended. It was supposed to be the word Focus with the o being a bullseye. I guess the file was still too big. I decided it was different so I am keeping it!
If it's important to you, I suspect your avatar will show in its entirety if you go into a paint program and make a square out of it. All white space to the top and bottom until the image is a square. When it's a rectangle, as yours is, the forum 'crops' you to make a square.
Hi @Roady! Thank you so much for asking. I am actually doing well. I have changed my relapse definition to intentional searching and I am finding recovery is much easier.
Hello NF. I read your post on my journal. I know it's tough to post relapses. But you're still needed on other people's journals. Encouragement, acknowledging milestones, etc. Even if you're fried with relapses, you are still needed by other people who are struggling. When you're on top of your game, you share words of wisdom ... when you're feeling bad, you become a listening ear. People need you, NF.
It was very kind of you @John McClean to encourage me through my troubles. Sometimes it is difficult to keep writing here. I am thankful for guys like you to keep writing for our benefit.