Today I will not use porn because it proved futile consistently for years as a method to improve my life. Actually it made it worse
For everything that I have and also for the things that I don't have. He is the almighty that rises above all
My traumatic experience 8 years ago sprang into existence. I started searching about link of trauma and addiction
There is a large link. You can't address one issue independently. It's like trauma is the underlying pin of fapping somehow
No I didn't relapse thanks God. I just reflected on recent relapses and found out that to recover from a relapse at least a week should be spent
Thanks God for today. Deeply grateful. Keep trying guys, keep doing what is to be done. You will be better
Lol I feel the weakness, the resentment and the dependency lurking inside. Its what triggered dependency on pmo on 1st place
For me its not anymorr about benefits. Benefits are cool, super cool. But relapses tell me I have a big problem
I feel so awkward and anxious too. Its less with engaging myself in constructive habits yet its so tiresome
So why would I ever wanna give up pmo? Because it's a disease to watch p and run away from life, that's a pretty good damn reason.
Also I have more time to do what I want. Also I'd be more creative, sociable, calmer and more focused
Today is lovely. No amount of discrepancies between what I thunk to be perfect and what happend is sufficient to discredit that today
Day 3. I'm still on twitter but I'm balancing betweeen staying there and being positive and doing my tasks
The things they say work with addiction overcoming is: breaking isolation, accepting yourself unconditionally, love for others, spirituality
Like we all have imagination but maybe its not playing right, Im afraid I'd fall to p but actually practically speaking not doing pmo is so easy
I just dont do it. Yet its so difficult bc it is so cramped in my memory as a drug that would elevate my mood so high for small time
To keep off it I would substitute it with love for god, then myself and my fellow humans, conscious love. Peace
Glad to hear it bro. Trust me, I've been through everything you have and others here can relate. You aren't alone just don't give up. Keep trying.
You don't know how much I can relate to this. The feelings of loneliness etc don't define us. We get back and try once more and soon we are back on track. Thanks you
In real life, I'm just as lonely as you despite being married. I promise you. Just remember to keep fighting and you aren't alone.
I hit rock bottom yeterday and today. But I mean suffering is inescapable sooner or later. I'm happy at least it wasn't a severe illness
Although addiction itself is a severe illness but I think there are plenty of worse illnesses. Thing is I think my life will be like this, periods of highs (no pmo) followed by relapses where I feel shitty till I die huh
On the positive side, I had a good run. I went for 20 days, relapsed for 3 days then went 38 days then relapsed for 4 days
Let me add that the 38 days streak was super double awesome. I felt the superpowerys and they are so real