Day 0 - Relapsed I'm sorry, I'm not having a good time lately. Although I've been studying from the beginning of the University I can't understand several maths exercises and I have to do three exams during the next week. I am so tired and stressed that I can't prevent this disgusting addiction from striking me. But I really want to quit...
Yes stress is a pitfall. Don't worry, take your time and take it easy.. BUT never give up, try again, this iterations makes us wiser. when I relapsed last time after a record nofap duration, I went for 10 days trying to get up again on my feet! Relapse can do that to us. But once you feel ok, take a breath, aim your target and sprint like a rocket. Don't worry, be happy.
Have you incorporated some healthy habits to do instead of pmo? It is really important to have something constructive to do when the depression or the urges or emotional stuff hits you. For example go for a walk, and think about some nice habit you want to have. Day 3 for me. Working out, staying busy
Day 4 of 21. The urge to orgasm today exceeded any previous day out of the 25 I’ve stayed away from pmo! My anxiety was fuelled by these urges. Physically my balls were tight and sore aka blue balls! This hasn’t eased up all day. Don’t know what to do
thought id share this from my journal today. Just goes to show , sometimes you can be doing your absolute best but some unexpected force will just blow it all to shit - Dumb ass fool from the office sent me a vid on whatsapp - one of those starts off with something normal but unexpectedly switches to porn vids. Was alright though, I immediately turned the phone around out of my vision and switched it off. REALLY Disappointed that I had to see that though. I will now no longer be opening any videos or media from anyone I am unsure of. Hope this doesn't have any negative effects - Strange but after I just really wanted to look at woman , like some damn switch had been flipped or something. FML
No urges today and I'm done with the challenge, moving on to the 30-day challenge. 21 days down, 0 to go.
