Day 6 - No PMO Urges are still quiet. I'm struggling a lot because maths is really difficult to understand at the University.
10 days done, 11 in progress... I'll be honest, I just forgot to come back here yesterday... But other than that, everything's going fine. I almost don't think about PMO anymore, I excercise... By the way, two days ago I almost relapsed because my friend sent me some dirty shit but I resisted by just reminding me that I'll feel "good" only for a few minutes and really bad afterwards.. I don't know, for me this helps a lot, for others it may not help at all... Cya
Well, I relapsed because of high stress and being drunk. I have been meditating and it was the first time I realized that I was stressed and how it was affecting me. I only relapsed once and did not fall into getting into my old habit. My will is still strong because I am still determined to beat this, the benefits are just too big and important for me. Also, I can not be that man if I am going to have a woman I love and a family. I will beat this. I am moving to the 30 days challenge because I want to keep it simple and finish three 30 days challenge to reach my goal. I plan on keeping PMO free after 90 days. Keep on being strong everyone, we can do this.
Day 2 already felling so good about the step i took want to keep on going like this. No urges cause i have been busy all day.
Day 21 complete. Day 22 in progress. I’m really grateful to have found this group and to have taken on this challenge. I’m going to build on this momentum and take on a longer challenge!
uff i almost relapsed... 15/21 . For the last couple of days I have been gaming a lot and this has really affected me.I found that i have an urge for masturbation after gaming.
So hard. I'm starting to get an erection just by watching some music video to release stress. It's good on one hand that the erection is coming back, but it also makes it harder to not watch porn or masturbate.
Relapsed... Just my last relapse still in my mind and it is bouncing back. To be honest i relapsed after one day of the last relapse, but i said i just need it to move on, maybe it will be encouragement for me to see the counter turning, later i will take off one day, but the relapses continued mercilessly.. untill last night. Why is that? I need to take some rest. I will think about a new strategy to continue my journey. After my 28 clean days, that I really enjoyed, it was like a sneak peek of a better life that i should have. Sorry brothers, I will stop for some day, i feel that i am in a trap and abusing myself everyday!
Day 2 A quick day. No relapse, no urges. I must improve and be ready for when urges will arrive Outis
... alas, it happens ... a long-term addiction can't be broken just in one day. if you feel you need a rest probably you really need it. however, you'll realize soon that what you really need is recovering enough inner equilibrium to keep again your self control and to begin a new journey. don't worry, stay strong and start again ...
Day 0 of 21... just finished the 14 day challenge and am excited to get into this one! Doing well and feeling strong
day 12. I have broadband back after awhile without it and it's obvious what my first urge is. Going to just go to bed instead. Sleep well.
