"Completed Day 10" - "Starting Day 11" (total 55 days) Made it through yesterday with no urges. I got a haircut, which is good. No depression today, but I definitely feel a shift in my attitude towards life, and it's a good kinda shift. I have 4 days left on this challenge. I'm definitely excited to participate in the 21 day challenge, if I can get through this challenge first. I've gotta be prepared for any sneak attack urges. Don't worry, I'll be careful guys. :\
Relapsed.... Luckily, it was only a dream. It felt so real, and I got the usual guilt and shame that comes with it. I do remember in details "how I have relapsed". It happens everytime when I enter my 3rd week of NoPMO. I remember when I stopped smoking, I had a couple of dreams about relapsing during the first 6 months. They were also so real. Day 12 (Total 19) - Having a headache right now, that is really really really rare in my life so it is probably a result of porn withdrawal. Dealing with slight anxiety too, but nothing major. I got this
Day 0. Did not pmo, but I find myself linger on triggering media (can be thought as psub) and am unable to move away immediately on my own will. Nearly relapsed. Thus, I'll restart this challenge again. I did not reset my day counter, but I'll do so if I find myself looking for triggering media again before completing the 14 days challenge. That's my goal for now. After I pulled myself out just now, took a cold shower and mind is clear again. Only then did I realize my mind was in the fog... did some reflection while I'm at it. Will continue to take cold shower when I have the urges. Probably one of the most effective emergency steps. XD
Day 13/14. Following a decision made does not mean easy. It is necessary to have self-control, trust in God who seeks the best, the most perfect and who helps those who ask sincerely, change the discipline of life and seek different options to face the challenges of the day, every day . The fight is not for a few days, it's just FOR THIS DAY and hope that one by one, everything will be resolved for good. Cheer up! It is no longer important to fall or not what matters is to get up and continue with this change of life. We continue for another day!
Day 11/14 is done. Had some urges at night but I tried to relax with breathing exercises. Had another dream which I hoped would be wet, but wasn't. Haha!
Day 6. Today I took some time to think about my current life situation and made some desicions on what I should change.. I don't really want to talk about them, but today I felt a special amount of motivation to get my life together and really pursue the things I always wanted to change. Other than that, still no big urges, I'm not sick anymore and tomorrow I'll have a tough day so I have to go prepare for that... See ya.
Day 13 - No PMO A stupid post on a social network gave me an urge to watch porn today, but I turned back, left my smartphone somewhere at home and forgot about it. When such things happen I realise how much self-control I gained since I started my rebooting on NoFap. I feel proud.
Today is day 7 for me.. Wow. God really helped me today.. Am half way there. We all can make it. Day 7 done on gone