Hello people ! I am on the 4th days without MO and you can check below my days in no P. Well these days I feel weird. I am angry with myself that I spent all these years to porn and masturbation and I really want to change my life and I will do it. But after I started my journey here I became more sensitive and depressed. I was out yesterday and I saw some pretty beautiful girls and I was so sensitive that I felt in love with many of them (yea I know, I am idiot). But it was one girl there I was sitting that she was like angel with her blonde hair and I can't forget her. I think that it is a big problem for me, because there are so many beautiful girls out there and I can't fall in love with every girl. That will destroy my mood. When I was into porn and masturbation I did not feel like that because my addiction made me forget about other parts of real life. Is that something you all face people ? Is that a good sign or I have problem with my mood ? I really want to get rid of that feeling. I feel like I am weak and every beautiful girl will save me. That feeling is destroying me. Do I look for attention ? Thank you for your time !
very well self observation. consider urself lucky enough they r around u. its hard to understand sexual feelings. try to get help from those feelings to think more positively about ur current surroundings.
unfortunately,in modern days . we undestand about females from bad resources. that bad resources enffluences our thinking about girls badly. just this ill thinking might be making u sad and lonely. but donot worry soon it will pass.
I did not think about that girl badly. On the other hand I want nothing from her than just looking her beauty. I am sad not because she rejected me or something sexual but because I saw her once and I will never see her again. The problem is that this happens with me a lot. Maybe its because I don't go out a lot and I am very enthusiastic and weak. I hope through self-improvement I will become better and more confident and I will not be like a boat in the ocean that gets carried away from the waves...
