26 yesterday night i was very tired and just lay on the couch zapping the tv. all the sudden an urge creeped in, at first i didn´t pay much attention to it, but i didn´t change my attitude either. the urge kept there, and after a while i start zapping for any kind of hot scene on tv. immediatly my eyes start flashing and the blood pumping. but nothings on. i went to bed in sadness. naturally i didn´t fucking sleep all night because of dry eyes and all kinds of sexual thoughts in my head. at 7 am i didn´t hold it anymore and start peaking some softcore in the mobile. after 30 minutes of viewing, i stopped. never touch myself. in the morning i went to work, but my mind kept drilling for more stuff. so when i was alone at work i started peaking softcore again. after a while i stopped. i could see my mind suggest all kinds of traps "well, soft scenes aren´t that graphic..." "man, losing all that girls? no way" and so on... so i turn my chair around and start rationalizing what the hell was going on. after a while i came to the conclusion that softcore will have the same detrimental effect as porn, so if i engage in it it´s obvious that it will ruin my life like porn. needless to say i had like 20% productive this morning cause my mind was all over the place. luckly the major things were already done, so no big damage there. at lunch i told my wife what has happened, even my strategy to watch at home. usually i share with her my screws up´s but i don´t tell her the technique to watch (so to keep it a secret...). but i´m so fed up with this shit that i just blow the all scheme. and you know what? i felt really good, really relieved. we even discuss tactics on how to prevent that from happening. sometimes is good to be brutally honest. learning and moving my friends. onwards
Check in. Doing good. Need to make new habits and get off tech more often. And also just stop being lazy and procrastinating.
Its amazing isnt it, i cant miss a day off mma or a day at the gym my mind is changing rapidly the idea of stroking it away just upsets me. Grow, be higher and see further!!!
0 days It's getting harder and harder to get out of this one. But I'm not going to let fear or shame stop me from my goal. Today I'm not going to fap
Day 13 of no PM Day 82 of no alcohol or caffeine Day 50 of weight training - just checking in to say I have had some hard moments in the past 2 days since accidentally looking at porn yesterday - needing to stay strong to resist temptation to go back and look again - the good news is I seem very resolved with will not wanting to M or O to it - it seems more about my brain wanting a bath in dopamine - having who's in control here type feelings between my body and brain? - stay strong friends!
53 days no pmo...keep going...just...keep...going. It gets better...then difficult again...then better...then so-so...then difficult...then great...then difficult....then awesome...then so-so...urges come and go, come and go....hang in there
Glad I'm not the only one missing out on sleep. With Masturbation it is always really easy to fall asleep at night. But the next morning after was always hard to get up. Now it's the other way around. Its hard to fall asleep but easy to get up next morning. The latter is probably the better option regarding my lectures ... BTW Daily Checkin