21 yo, PIED, 2 months on NoFap, Cuckold, Gay thoughts, HOCD etc

cali4sto · Nov 18, 2020

I have to say that this man has really really inspired me, specially the following:

This man is just a plain genious

Such a simple plan, no artificial stimuli, resist TO ALL THE FREAKING urges that you might get

Just rewire with chicks

Done.

cali4sto · Nov 28, 2020

MichaelDracula said: ↑

I am ready to be in flatline as long as I need to be. My worst nightmare is those gay urges. I stopped watching porn completely last summer and was still masturbating to my imagination and pictures of women. Thought that will help me, but erections were very weak at beginning. Then they became stronger. At some point I tried to masturbate again and couldn't get it up. At that point I decided to go full NoFap, not using porn, NoDating for as long as it takes, until I get random boners, morning wood and my sexuality back. First week was OK, I had almost 0 urges, but then I started slowly getting those gay bottom urges, had voices in my head telling me that I just needed to accept that I am gay bottom, I could basically get 90-100% hard just seeing word bottom on NoFap or something. I had the strongest anxiety, suicidal thoughts, voices in my heads, sleep insomnia, 2 dry dreams with artificial orgasms (orgasms in the dream, without ejaculation) to me watching gay porn in the dream on my computer screen. I still struggle to sleep well.
Now I have less anxiety, think about girls, my mind concentrating on their chest, I am feeling happier. Despite still having weak erections, and feeling asexual, I feel like I am headed in right direction and will be healed in no time.

You said I am ready to go 2 years, I will never touch my dick again, I will never watch porn, this is lifetime decision for me. I will better feel asexual my entire life, than spend another 10 minutes jerking to porn in front of computer.

I hope that anybody who is reading this can see how evil pornography is. I never imagined I would be in this position. I thought I don't have any addictions. Because we do porn in private, because we do it for ourselves, because we think that when the time comes, I will of course be able to get it up, the real deal is better than porn, we don't think about it twice. Everybody is masturbating, they say. But not everybody does it every day, escalating to genres that mismatch their sexual tastes. If I just masturbated and didn't look at pornography, I probably wouldn't have any issues with my erections. I had very high libido before I started pornography, I hope that I will be able to get it back.
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wow, this is what I call commitment!!!!!!!

"You said I am ready to go 2 years, I will never touch my dick again, I will never watch porn, this is lifetime decision for me. I will better feel asexual my entire life, than spend another 10 minutes jerking to porn in front of computer."

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