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I don’t know what to do anymore. I smoke, I masturbate almost everyday I pray like crazy and it doesn’t change anything. I have exam tomorrow and how can I look people in the eyes if I was constantly relapsing and even relapsed a day before this exam. I will be so drained and weak. I don’t know I don’t feel God’s presence, I ask him for sign or anything but I can’t overcome this sin. I CANT GO LONGER THAN SEVEN DAYS FOR TWO YEARS ALMOST. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up again. And I know what you all are going to say. That I should seek treatment and read Bible, well I can’t. My parents will know about my addiction, my brother everybody around me and reading Bible won’t change anything I read random verses from Bible and it doesn’t heal me, what should I do?