Post published by dudeface
Say a prayer for me guys, I anticipate a difficult week. I'm on day 15 and two weeks is as long as I've been able to go for the past few months. What's worse, I'm not feeling it. My motivation and enthusiasm for staying clean at the moment is pretty much at it's Nadir. Now, I know that repentance is an act of the will not the feels (thank God!) but when I havn't got the emotional motivation, it takes a pretty weak temptation to bowl me over. Gonna give my wife my phone this week and my computer is in the living room. So I'm going to sleep in a bit, so that I'm not on it until someone else in the house is up. Other than those things and just waiting it out, I'm not sure how to attack this. I've been praying the rosary daily and that helps, I'll keep that up too of course. There are no holy days this week... I have to make it clear from Sunday to Sunday! Imma call one of my buddies and see if he wants to take midweek Mass over lunch one day. Pray it up guys. It's gonna be a rough one.
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Intelli Gent
I will most definitely pray for you brother. When the waves come rolling in find the most public place to go where you can get quiet, still and pray.
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dudeface
Wow. Hang in there lucentio. I'll add you to my rosary intentions and will offer intentions for you tonight at Mass. I'm still ok. I had a talk with my wife this morning told her were I was at. She agreed to keep my phone for me and she pointed out that Our Lady of Guadalupe is this Wednesday and there is an evening Mass, so she suggested we go as a family, if my accountability partner cannot do noon mass with me. It was hard, being honest, but in a strange way, being open and honest about where I am, that it bruises the crap out of my pride, some how seems to help lessen the temptation.
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Lancelot Striving47
You are doing this right! So amazing you are getting your wife's help! I often say, secrecy is the poison on the blade of this addiction. Being honest is going to get you out of this. Have you thought about doing something fun with some buddies or wife this week? Something to cheer you up. Motivation or lack of it is what so often can lead to a fall. Keep fighting @dudeface ! Keep strategizing!
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