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Post published by Nightmare17

Awaken Your Life

Awaken Your Life

Nightmare17 Public May 23, 2018

Last night I M 2 times straight after 6 days. I really tried to change my habits like try to write,read,Meditation,Exercise,change myroutine but none of these things worked. For me M and P is like my first priority. Everyday when I wake up or go to sleep,Ithink about PMO. It seems like my will power is completly destroyed. I become moody day by day.My best friends andthe closet ones control themselves by M and P but I really can't help myself.I just survive one week and then I M 4 times 6 times straight.When you have dreams and Goals but you have no oppurnity and no hope.That hurts me everyday every moment.I'm 17 years old but my parents do not give me permission to go outside and meet ur best friends,to go outside and hunt your goals,to go outside and become a Lion.My sister came this world dead and that's why my parents so sensitive in my case.I want to become a professional footballer(seems like a joke for u). Since last three weeks I think my self so much(overthinking).I can't control myself and my thoughts.Now I'm just like a weak man sitting in a chair and regret about life.My best friends try to motivate me every time infact there some people told me but my addiction is so high that it doesn't help.Life throws lot of things at me.I controlled everything with hope and smile except M.You guys come here give me advice but it doesn't work I alreadytold you.No one hear my inner weak man.I Just want to tell you that you all are strong.Whoever read this Pray for thisweak man.I destroy myself it destroy my life...Have a great day!!!

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akrivane

Hello dear,

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Nightmare17

Hello my friend!!

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akrivane

I am not going to call you nightmare17, because you are not a nightmare.
We should be careful with how we see and call ourself, because it is one of the things that build us or destroy us.

akrivane

I can call you Champ, because if you are here, you are already a champion for your life. But you can call yourself something that you like you know?

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akrivane

I can feel you are being discouraged by the fact that your parents are controlling your movements too much. As you said you want to become a pro footballer, is it possible to train near your house where your parents see you?

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akrivane

And when they would have noticed how you really into it, you can ask them to accompany you to trainings? I am sure they would become tired of accompanying you after a certain time. You know, like they say life throws lemons, you make a lemonade?

akrivane

Try to breathe and not make a big deal out of it, and accept your situation. Because with your parents, i can only see you accepting it and making strategies that allow you to do what you want at the end.

akrivane

Dont think about other people that might laugh at you, only think about what you want and how you can achieve it.

Nightmare17

There is no training centre or clubs near my home.In my country Pakistan people doesn't take much interest in football...

Nightmare17

My grandmother seriously ill.She has brain prob some type of neurological problem..My father has heart and blood pressure problem..Dengue hit mom in 2016...My elder lose his one eye due to cornea effects..

Nightmare17

Everyone in my family fight with their problems. Whenever I ask my father of request him to give me permission for football,He only said me one thing it's impossible for u and us too...

Nightmare17

Lack of facilities,financial problems,Health problems.Everything is fine except thus habit..

akrivane

okay, yeah it seems like everyone at your home is really dealing with their own issues. Are you the last born? Usually last borns are left behind, and they figure out things by themselves in those case. Mostly by observation.

akrivane

Do you have any other interests you can put your time into? Stuff that you like to do or think about doing?

Nightmare17

Yea i'm last born...only interest is football and video games but u know financialy i'm weak so i cant afford a console or gaming pc..

Nightmare17

Due to excessive masturbation and porn addiction,it made me moody so I couldn't develop new hobbies or habits...

akrivane

Well, you can start developing them now. Spend a time to think about other hobbies you might cultivate. Or even google it.

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