Post published by Nightmare17

Last night I M 2 times straight after 6 days. I really tried to change my habits like try to write,read,Meditation,Exercise,change myroutine but none of these things worked. For me M and P is like my first priority. Everyday when I wake up or go to sleep,Ithink about PMO. It seems like my will power is completly destroyed. I become moody day by day.My best friends andthe closet ones control themselves by M and P but I really can't help myself.I just survive one week and then I M 4 times 6 times straight.When you have dreams and Goals but you have no oppurnity and no hope.That hurts me everyday every moment.I'm 17 years old but my parents do not give me permission to go outside and meet ur best friends,to go outside and hunt your goals,to go outside and become a Lion.My sister came this world dead and that's why my parents so sensitive in my case.I want to become a professional footballer(seems like a joke for u). Since last three weeks I think my self so much(overthinking).I can't control myself and my thoughts.Now I'm just like a weak man sitting in a chair and regret about life.My best friends try to motivate me every time infact there some people told me but my addiction is so high that it doesn't help.Life throws lot of things at me.I controlled everything with hope and smile except M.You guys come here give me advice but it doesn't work I alreadytold you.No one hear my inner weak man.I Just want to tell you that you all are strong.Whoever read this Pray for thisweak man.I destroy myself it destroy my life...Have a great day!!!