183. go play basketball, then go to a bar to meet company leaders. Wish there would be no slut or prostitute approaching me in the bar. GW
184, study little bit, stop thinking about dating. Let destiny chooses. Also pay back MasterCard debt
the world itself is to diminish human's mental health and life being. without helping others, just relying in medicine and therapy would eventually fail. I really want to be confident as long as i could. But even I knew that I should. But I still missed my chance to be confident. Thanks for all of your supports.
Nofap notes for today: since 90% of internet was hidden in the darkness, it means human destiny naturally would lead us into darkness. It is real whoever called God in their heart would be saved. Human can't even live with themselves. So, it is always easier for others to predict our destiny. Just like watching dirt, it is predicted before our actions. How come we could avoid being trapped from expErienced ones
190 days, nice! Do you still feel the urges as strongly as they used to be or have they calmed down? I'm sure by now you can control them anyways, but just wondering whether they calm down as you get bigger streaks, thanks.
they are less frequent, but stronger and trickier. Urges want to tell me that I am strong enough to test myself. But I won't test myself for any reason. I knew this porn sht is away more complicated than anything I could image or try.
I was told always trust myself, but this weekend, I somehow lack confidence. The world is challenging me until one point when I can trust myself to make it, but I refused. Maybe this indicated life has no short path, everything is step by step. Even building a new inner and outer self, it doesn't have secret weapon or strategy, it is always step by step. I thought that someone like priest was saved, but I realized they were just like a human who is still seeking for an answer no matter how old they are. So everyone is lonely and confused. I said that patience needed confidence. Maybe there is no such thing called maybe, everything is either from heaven or hell. It is pleasure to live between heaven and hell, because we are human. I will always look forward, and guys, no relapse today!