Feb Challenge for Christians war Group!

182, I forget to check my work before I sent it. I shall do it each time.

 

Fapstronauts reminding me the above line

 

I shall never let this happen again

 

183. go play basketball, then go to a bar to meet company leaders. Wish there would be no slut or prostitute approaching me in the bar. GW

 

184, study little bit, stop thinking about dating. Let destiny chooses. Also pay back MasterCard debt

 

185. I need to Work like a robot on Monday . No need rest

 

186 The bad effects of drinking alcohol is wet dream. I will try to avoid drink alcohol.

 

1. work a little bit, then study
2. after working, do exercise.

 

187. Trust yourself then trust God. How hard is it? Super hard. But super true.

 

188. Thanks for confusion

 

the world itself is to diminish human's mental health and life being. without helping others, just relying in medicine and therapy would eventually fail. I really want to be confident as long as i could. But even I knew that I should. But I still missed my chance to be confident.
Thanks for all of your supports.

 

189. Helping others to treat my own mental problem is a good practice, trust me

 

Nofap notes for today: since 90% of internet was hidden in the darkness, it means human destiny naturally would lead us into darkness. It is real whoever called God in their heart would be saved. Human can't even live with themselves. So, it is always easier for others to predict our destiny. Just like watching dirt, it is predicted before our actions. How come we could avoid being trapped from expErienced ones

 

190. talked to parents, and will work on part time Job.

 

they are less frequent, but stronger and trickier. Urges want to tell me that I am strong enough to test myself. But I won't test myself for any reason. I knew this porn sht is away more complicated than anything I could image or try.

 

191. my jade bracelet was broken today, thanks for saving my life once. My jade (Chinese myth).

 

I was told always trust myself, but this weekend, I somehow lack confidence. The world is challenging me until one point when I can trust myself to make it, but I refused.
Maybe this indicated life has no short path, everything is step by step. Even building a new inner and outer self, it doesn't have secret weapon or strategy, it is always step by step.
I thought that someone like priest was saved, but I realized they were just like a human who is still seeking for an answer no matter how old they are. So everyone is lonely and confused.
I said that patience needed confidence.
Maybe there is no such thing called maybe, everything is either from heaven or hell. It is pleasure to live between heaven and hell, because we are human. I will always look forward, and guys, no relapse today!

 

192

 

played some basketball and im going to study