23/30 days done. One week more to go to complete the challenge. Incredible, how far I have come. Also, my libido is showing signs of life again! It is not yet back completely, I think, but I am extremely happy about the direction it is going.
I relapse today because I was suffer from boredom and loneliness, really I don't know what was I was doing that time.
Relapsed today. So tomorrow will be day 0. My wife asked for a divorce today. And then we talked and she is giving us more time. But that time could be any time. She had originally promised 90 days (just enough time for me to reach a reboot) and then turned around and gave me 10ish days before saying she was fully done. I am so emotionally drained. All of this hurts so much. Porn is the cause. And hard as this is, I have to fucking beat this. I don’t know if my marriage will be saved or not, but I got here by letting porn rule my life. And if it continues this way, I will continue to self sabotage any relationships (romantic or otherwise) and jobs I have for porn. And I hate that. I don’t want that. I want to be done. I want to be sober. I want to be done.
Day 0 - close to mental and physical breaking point due to work pressure (not due to nofap) but I turned to pmo to provide relief Only 2 more days of unsuitable job then will try something new Day 1 and 2 have flown by as I try to see out this interesting but not suitable for me job
Takes me dozens of false starts before I get a decent streak going again, but I give myself credit for every day, even if they aren't all in order. We always tend to measure our success by the number of days, but I think we should measure it by the number of times we get up, dust ourselves off, and try again. I always try to give myself credit for effort and at least turning in the right direction.
When I fall off, I really fall off and it takes me many tries to just get to 24 hours! (Is there a 24 hours challenge on here some place? There should be!) 21 days ago I was just finishing up that first day for the first time in months. It's the same process (for me anyway) with my weight. Coming off of fap binges, I find I have gained a lot of weight. I use food like I use fapping: to escape or avoid feelings that I don't like, to numb myself. It all counts. A friend once said, "Whenever you work on a thing, you are working on everything." Good luck out there.
Day 0 done day 1 come today I Just play game listen song but tomorrow I have to do other things. I have understand that how can I overcome my loneliness and boredom so be strong myself and others.
