Hi there! I've struggled a lot with HOCD now, and it feels impossible to continue my NoFap journey together with HOCD. HOCD is a problem by itself but it makes me relapse on NoFap. It all begins with that I need to check if I get arroused by males or not and it leads creating sexual images in my mind to check whatever or not I get aroused by males or not. Therefore it leads to creation of many more (heterosexual) sexual fantasies that leads me to cumming. A other bad scenario of HOCD makes to look after girls on random subreddits to check if I get aroused or not and it doesn't end there, it makes me go on more edgier and edgier subreddits that has P-like content. I can't handle it anymore, it has been a half year since I got HOCD and my HOCD got worser, it evolved to a psychotic version; whenever I get a HOCD fear - I understand that it's caused by HOCD and I calm down, but after a week of a such HOCD-denial behavior my HOCD feers just stop. Because my HOCD feers stopped at that point it gives me a other type of fear - a fear that I've may begin accepting that I'm a homosexual because I don't have those HOCD thoughts anymore. It's an infinite loop that I can't get out of... I've have also a fear of having sex irl because it may create new fetishes in the same way P did. Is that possible? Best regards to this community and thanks for all your help!
A classical hocd case. Just join the hocd support group on facebook https://www.facebook.com/groups/660241161106617/
stop asking yourself whether you are gay. It is useless. Love is love, and one cannot be emotionally aroused simply because of a gender
Just don't think about it. The reason you're constantly thinking about this is probably because you are not busy enough. Occupy yourself with hobbies, things you love and work on those.
He thinks about it cuz it’s a fucking obsession. I wake up with my mind telling me that I’m gay. I get gay thoughts even in my sleep. I don’t feeln anything for women anymore. Feels like I have turned gay!
have read the book "brain lock' about OCD in general? There are techniques there you can use one of them is when the thought comes up just say 'oh there's an ocd thought again' - its sounds silly but it works with time. yes quitting pmo exacerbates HOCD because you're anxiety levels will rise - like stopping drinking you have to face problems AND find a way to reduce anxiety in a HEALTHY way.. the worse thing you can do is keep checking.
U wanna know how it started ? So growing up people would call me gay for no reason and in June a gay dude told me that I can turn gay all of a sudden
No, you are straight you say, don't watch gay porn, have no contact to the gay community ... How come you are compulsively obsessed with homosexuality?