35 and Older Accountability Group

Check in monday

 

Sorry to hear friend! Strong urges are like living hell. Im so grateful they eventually pass after worst scenario few days.

 

Checking in day 44 - I will soon be half way through my 90 day journey!! Yesterday I felt I needed some closure with some guys I used to text or have casual sex in the past because all this used to sustain my urges for MO or PMO or sending nudes or.. Whatever. I've been to hell and back numerous times until my inner wonder woman woke up finally and said "F*ck this shit, you can do better than that" So I wrote them letters telling them I'm moving on etc. Terrible anxiety started creeping in later in the day - fear of abandonment or sth?? wtf how can I be afraid of being abandoned if I'm the one doing that? it's all faulty programmes installed early on in my life. But I battled the anxiety (which would have led me to urges) by going to bed early and did my 5 am morning routines today. So far so good though it is not easy - it's that time of the month for me when I have to be extra careful and vigilant, urges strike even reading nofap posts

 

Hi everbody, monday check in.

New monday new day. Still on track. Thanks for the support of your likes and responses. I've hope that i'll make it through this week to start, and hopefully more!

I'm trying to eliminate every trigger I've discovered on myself and taking this very seriously. One step at a time, one day at a time.

 

Thank you my brother!

 

checking in

 

92 days my brothers. I am experiencing that with every day that passes I am becoming less attached to virtuous and non virtious thoughts and able to let them go more freely. This is uncharted territory for me but it feels free....and uncontrived.

 

Check in tuesday

 

i'm checking in guys, been a little rough, personally and professionally lately, but i'm happy to report that i have watched 0 porn. I feel the need to rise and fall, but more of the later. Lets see where this ride takes us

 

"I have read the rules and would like to join this group"

 

Check in wednesday

 

We'll, it all went Pete Tong on Monday night, I'd been accomodating thoughts and fantasies all day, which has been quite unusual for me over last 28 days. So I went to find P relating to it and one thing led to another. Anyway I still feel strong and nowhere near as shit as I thought I'd feel. So onwards and upwards...

 

Be strong you’re not alone! And you’re not abandoned cos’ we’re ARE here. We all are in this together to win this together.

I know is not easy. I’m new. I’ve just started my journey and is not an easy one. But is worth it. Cos’ each one of us worth it. There are more in life and we are here to fight for it.

Have you heard Toby Mac? There’s a song of him “Elemnts” that basically speaks of never quit the fight even when the elements or the odds are against you. Don’t give up. Keep fighting the good fight.