Interesting.I am by no means this relies solely on willpower but to say that this requires absolutely zero willpower just seems stupid to me. Blockers are by no means a miracle and normally there is almost always a way around them(and probably quite simple once you figure it out) however they can serve as a blocker to buy you just a few seconds...a few seconds in which you might rethink relapsing.
Alright folks I need to report yet another relapse...3 this time bring my total to 22. I feel horrible after binging for 2 days.I felt so good on my previous streak when I was working out,working hard and going to bed and now I feel like a fucking truck hit me and the proceeded to back up over top of me,My head is pounding,my teeth hurt,I can't think straight,I am tired as hell because I only slept 5 hours last night due to staying up late using P and my lower back is killing me. I don't know what I continue to do this to myself.I know how it will make me feel and I know nothing about porn will ever make me feel better than a good nights sleep and waking up to the sunrise but sometimes I just give up and choose to numb all my stress for a moment at the cost of increased stress later which simply is not a good plan. So here I am with my progress gone and feeling beat to shit with a ton of work needing to be done.Time to hunker down in this chair and work,I just have to focus on one breath after the other knowing that things will get better if I just give it time. Stay strong folks!
Sorry to hear that you're going through all that man. Next time you'll make it to day 6 and beyond, use this to remind yourself why you don't want to give in when the time comes. In the words of a wise man HOLD THE LINE
Checking in. Successful completion of 4 days! Yesterday I had severe cold & fever but im recovering now.
POSSIBLE SCORE: 200(days points) +30(bonus points)= 230(total points)/200(days) which means 115% efficient. MY PERSONAL GOAL: TO ACHIEVE 100% OR MORE. MY PROGRESS: 4/200 [2% efficient as on 12/10/2018]
Stay away from the net. There is a lot of work cut for you, mate, so start grinding. No excuses, you can do this, I've seen you in action, so don't bullshit me. @Akermark, don't forget to check in, mate!
Another strike. Sigh... Well, I got over a week at least. During the last week I avoiding PMO wasn't hard for me. But I realized that I spent way too much time thinking unchaste thoughts. I was thinking about porn, I was thinking about how I would masturbate etc. After some days without PMO I tend to be worse at stopping these thoughts. I allow my self to think the thoughts as long as I don't do the acts. I really need to improve this and kill the thoughts much earlier, even during times when PMO feels distant. Allowing the thoughts led me to allow to see psub which led to me being very close into sliding back into actual porn. At that point got away from the screen. I'm happy that I still have been able to avoid the porn, but am really frightened that I'll eventually fall if I don't stop earlier in this process. However, I ended up masturbating, so a strike for me. I'll do my best to avoid that this leads to a longer time of sloppynes. I'm afraid that's my relapses, not the amount of days I've been away. I wish it was the other way though... I'm sorry to hear that. Was it something in particular that made you fall from the beginning this time? Which measures can you put into place to avoid the binging if you happen to make a mistake?
Uh, could we not? You know what this picture looks like, and you know there are plenty of women and gay men here. Not appropriate. I would report it, but I would rather ask politely first that you remove it.
I'm surprised you arent aware there are women and gay men here... there are literally two women in this challenge alone. But anyway, thanks for taking it down. I dont see why people feel the need to post stuff like that on a porn recovery site.
No. I said that I didn't know what this picture looked like until I saw your comment. It wasn't meant to be sexual,I just wanted to say "good morning" but jeez, whatever.