Right now im on mini bus sitting on last seat on window side about 20 mins a girl was sitting with me As seats were full. 5 people were sitting sit .. She was quite closed to me Her leg was touching with my leg... I thought it was due to filling of seats I was listening to music on phone. After a while i stopped listening the music. I observed that she was attached with me from leg thigh. I got strong erection. She placed feet closed to my feet.(so i can give touch to her feet) Sexual urges becomes strong. I started staring her with right eye on bsck. But somehow i concentrated on my breath and repress urrges. Although my urges trying to put my feet closed to her I suppress them by deep breathing. Then her stop came. And she went out of bus. I took sigh of relief. I am confused whether she was intended or im just imagining.. Due to my urges
None of us can mate, they are strangers! If you could work out the behaviour of a stranger surely you would be God!
Seems like a scenario where you were reading a bit much into it but no harm in striking up a conversation and seeing where it goes
@Navdeep i am a girl. she was not sending you any signal. she was a stranger in the bus. it was all in your mind. give yourself some time away from p to stop sexualizing about everything. I have been there, just with guys. Keep fighting in your reboot, you are doing good
I agree with you, most of these situations are just in our mind. It would be hard, but we have to make an effort to change our mind and control our thoughts. @Navdeep you are doing great!
Thanxx and i agree with you. Yeah it seems to very difficult when mind is preoccupied with sexuality when this kind of situation happens. When i m in correct state of mind. I realise All the thoughts which arises due to sexual urges are false. I feel like that it was my sexual obessed mind that was plotting itself. It happens because i talk barely to any girl in past.. Due to anxiety and pornography addiction. I tried meditation , yoga to clean these type of compulsive behaviour. I m on way to progress. But sometimes urges are so hard that masturbation by watching pornography becomes necessity. That is same case when im in bus. A touch of girl trigger that mind obessed with pornography and sexuality. I can't hold on it. Anyway I respect girls I don't want to have duality on sex ( gender). i. e this is boy or this is a girl All are same. Inspite of mind and dirty perception.
Improve your life. Make yourself happy. Set a goal in front of your face that you wanna reach (work, university, an important goal to fulfill yourself) to avoid going back at your addictions The only reason why I couldn't continue my reboots in the past was only because I didn't change my life I stayed the same, so staying the same person (i was unhappy, depressed, bored and felt like a failure in life), I was still going to go back at watching p P is bad for you. Now you see what is still doing to you. Keep fighting, it is so worthy it! Your life and all your relationships will improve by quitting your addictions. Trust me, I am 6 months PMO Free and now I am a much better and happier person and start to talk to girls step-by-step I was shy too and very afraid of guys now I am not. I got over my anxiety in talking with guys by experience and talking and having more friends
Thanks once again your words are very encouraging and I'm feeling some confidence no more words to say bye
Navdeep, you're an Indian I presume. Definitely not the first time. Maybe you should've initiated a talk on something common to you both if you felt an urge. Anyways, enjoy the love chemicals!
It happened to me before. I got really interested in non verbal behavior. You can get yourself busy with a really interesting book about it, which I strongly recommend: "What every body is saying". What I think it happened is the girl unconsciously liked you (though not in romantic or sexual sense). This was expressed through her body (which most of the time, people can't control) Next time this happen to you, try to look at her eyes and give her a friendly smile and see by yourself what happens... (After all, what can you lose?)
Not every girl is the same. I had once that I was standing in a very crowded train and a cute girl was standing before me. And sometimes she accidentally touched me with her ass. But after a while she kept her ass against me while there was enough space not to do so. I found it very sensual - it has something really erotic (for me at least) with a cute stranger