I relapsed again guys. The day was going by so well. I completely pummeled like 10 urges into the ground with almost no effort. It was amazing I rewarded myself and everything. Until I was in bed, right before I fell asleep. Dillusional and half asleep, I got one more urge. Your brain will sneak up on you and attack at your most vulnerable. It's that pathetic. It's the boxer that waits until your heading back to your corner to hit you. It's the army that bombs you after calling a truce. It loves to sucker punch you. Stay vigilant everyone, and know how pathetic this creature is. Don't make the mistake I did. DO NOT EVER LET YOUR GAURD DOWN.
Been there - and today I even went through a small hell of battle. Indeed, who said that a "truce" was called - that was the enemy's propaganda! Very good that you recorded this now in your journal, so as not to fall for this one next time.
Couldn't agree more. I absolutely hate it how the brain can go on autopilot and it becomes almost impossible to override. But so far, I'm neck deep in the trenches and not letting the enemy through.
Dig deep down...and dont stop. The problem is not only quitting...but also understanding why you felt into the porn addiction. Understanding how will give you strenght to carry on. Trust me, the problem is more than a rational choice. You think you choosed porn rationally, but in reality was your unconscious mind that found release with porn and it tryed to mask something that usually would had hurt. Dig deep down and you'll see a hidden world, a bit scarry and depraved, but hey..it's better to know and change, than to act as mad and die and in the end say : "I didn't know that!"
