What am I doing? Where will this bring me? Guilt is killing me inside, and gravity is crushing my back on the chair. Losing control is so easy, but letting it happen over and over again is pathetic. And here I am again, a slave to this destructive cycle. I fell into that dark place again; but I'm waking up, RIGHT NOW. I take responsibility for my weakness and everything I allowed myself to do. I lied to myself so many times, and I'm not going to justify myself with the fact that I am an addict. I still believe that the power to break the chains is in my hands; I never wanted freedom bad enough. So what? This moment can be the moment I finally stand up for myself. And if that's not the case, it's alright, I'll try at least. I am getting again on the path of recovery. I just wanted to write some words to let out how I'm feeling right now; Hope this will help me to commit myself again to recovery and help those who can relate to my situation. You are not alone guys!
Great words. I wish that I had decided to fight just a few minutes more and come here instead of relapsing today. These sorts of posts fill me with such good energy, I know it's always enough to take my mind off things. Keep fighting the good fight brother.
Thank you guys. Do not focus on the past, you have a new chance to succeed. I'm glad this inspired you, and I wish you good luck for your future. Peace!
