You think it’s easier to be someone else

I used to make this selfish wish of being someone that was cool. To be someone that I looked at and thought lived life smooth. That seems how a lot of guys look at women, and in some ways I’m sure it’s true.

I don’t watch porn anymore luckily, 50/50 I still make love to myself. It’s funny really how you see it, how looking at people doing something you wished. Man it makes you feel like a loser doesn’t it?

Im still me no matter what, that’s something that’s even tricky to accept. It isn’t easier on the other side it’s just a different set of rules. I wouldn’t want to be one of those women especially. It’s sad at the end of the day, we don’t really wish harm even if we are angry.

I mean if you really did hate women, why bother being here? Just take what you want and let that lust build. You may have a life you don’t even want, so if you truly don’t care just let it all go.

We are just a bunch of homos here anyways if it’s just about ourselves. So I say why not be better or be the worst you can be. Do something, put your all into it. Watching people swap disease isn’t much use is it. At the end of the day it’s just a waste of time and effort.

Those people should be doing something useful, or just cease to exist. Call me a loser or even an asshole, but I got a reason to be here. I hope you do too brother, even if I wouldn’t want you as a brother.