(Warning; Trigger words) It all begins when you're young. Like super young. I was about 3 years old when i saw my first bikini on a movie screen. Keri Russell in Honey I blew up the kid. To this day I still think that was one hell of an introduction to the female anatomy. I used to get a raging boner just from those 12 seconds of her sliding down the waterslide and skipping her tanned, slender body off the waterslide. Sometimes it's even more innocent than that. There is a kid's show that you might have heard of. It's called "sesame street" and no, i'm not slandering SS, it is a healthy, innocent, and beneficial piece of childhood and i'm thankful it hasn't been entirely run over by other shows aimed at children. But sometimes things that are meant to be innocent come off not so innocent. When I was a kid, there was a segment called "Froggy goes a kickin'" which was about a little girl singing about her love for frogs. But in the second half of the segment, said little girl goes swimming with her mom in a swimming pool, swimming like a frog. Those precious few seconds of mommy in her tight one-piece swimsuit are etched into my mind, associated with endless erections that at such a young age, i had no idea why my body was reacting. But, i really enjoyed it. I used to select that specific episode of sesame street just so i could see the mom in her bathing suit. This led me to becoming an aquaphile. That's not necessarily a bad thing. Aquaphilia motivated me to take up freediving as a summer activity. The problem was i did it just so i could watch girls and women swim underwater at the lake or the pool. As i age i'm more mature about that and now i freedive for the healthier aspects of it, like watching fish swim in their natural habitat or cleaning up the bottom of a lake. But aquaphilia has stuck with me as a fetish my whole life. At age 9 I went to science world in Vancouver and watched the IMAX documentary "Dolphins" and sat through half the documentary awestruck by the marine biologist lady swimming underwater in her red body glove. I remember having access to the internet as a teen and would constantly type in searches for "marine biologist" just to see pictures of bikini-clad women chasing dolphins. But this fetish turned a dark corner at the age of 10 when i saw the infamous pilot whale nearly drowns diver video on RealTV (A caught on tape show from the 90's) That is Aquaphilia in it's most sadistic and twisted form. At 11 it was the sears catalogue my mom left lying on the coffee table. at 12 it was the flyers that came in the paper. When we went to an appointment it was the fashion magazines with ads featuring half-naked women. Ads in readers digest, The mandatory strip scenes from fear factor & dog eat dog. The victoria's secret fashion show. Miss america's swimsuit competition. Shania Twain's cleavage at the grey cup halftime show. Janet Jackson's wardrobe malfunction at the superbowl. Miley Cyrus posing topless on the cover of Vanity fair. My 7th grade gym teacher's bra-strap shaped tanlines from the field trip to the pool. my english teacher in her sports bra at the lake. My high school Teacher's assistant who LOVED wearing V-neck tops, showing off a chest that had seen lots of sun. It NEVER ended. And it never will end. The fact is, Young men don't have a chance. The porn industry has their customers spoon fed to them. They're all hopped up on cheap teases and potent hormones and porn has the perfect product to go with it. Feminism has also contributed to the problem. Feminism has verbally and mentally castrated men in the past 50 years. Feminism has given young men the wrong ideas about women. Yes, in the workplace it's mandatory that you respect your female co-workers. But men are being taught that you have to be nice to women. this is a psychological trick that nearly every man falls for. Yes, mutual kindness is a good thing, but just because some girl talked to you politely doesn't mean she's interested in you. a lot of women will be nice to a man to get what they want and they don't care for a man's feelings. That's how you get emasculated men falling for E-thots and cam girls. But when you boil it down, before you reach the age of reason, you never had a chance. There was no way you could avoid porn. it was fed to you in lighter portions, disguised in innocence. It got you addicted. And then when you were old enough you were mindlessly hooked. So if you feel guilty for being addicted to porn once in your life, don't. That's not your fault. But it is your responsibility to fix the problem. Which is why i'm glad you're here. Keep up the good work, Fapstronauts!
At first I thought you’re message was quite immature as you are only speaking about so much shit you’ve seen, but you have a point, good post, but many would run away as you have so many triggering words here lol.
