Year Six: The Tradition (The Freshman Experience)

Hey all, I’m back again for a brand new year of NoFap, number six to be precise. Here is last year’s version:

https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/year-five-the-tradition-pandemic-edition.296854/

To recap the past year, this year was definitely much, much better than last year, and a lot more personal milestones were attained, but let’s go over how the last 11 months have went.

January: School was still online so it wasn’t a particularly fun month but it was definitely better than December because I learned to laugh at clown world.

February: This was where things began to dramatically improve, school went back to hybrid and we learned that it would go back to normal before the school year ended. I also went to Utah and had a lot of fun out there.

March: This month continued the upward momentum from February, as everything began to open up much more and I began to get back to feeling like we were in a real routine in school. I even got into my top choice for college this month.

April: The valiant return to normal occurred at the end of the month, and even before that was a happy time. I accepted my top choice for college this month.

May: This was by far 2021’s bread and butter. An amazing month that made up for all of the suffering us 2021 seniors went through before it. I truly began to spread my wings and effectively used the little time I had left in high school, which I viewed as a gift from God. The summer also began and we sure enjoyed it.

June: Yet another happy month with lots of pomp and circumstance. Graduation happened, and I went to many grad parties. I began hanging out with my friends after dark quite a bit after starting to do it in May. I also developed a crush on this really cute girl in the grade above me that I’ve unfortunately been yet to see since. The momentum was in the right direction.

July: Not as good as the prior months, but it had its perks. I did the bulk of my Eagle Scout work and enjoyed time with my friends some more. College and adulthood loomed, and I began to get ready for those things.

August: The biggest month of change in my entire life. I finished my Eagle Scout, turned 18, then got my Eagle Scout, and then went off to college a little while before the end of the month. The college transition wasn’t an easy one and I felt like a child, a fish out of water.

September: Once I got over being homesick, so began the roommate issues that dominated this month, not fun, but I managed and continued to get okay grades and make some new friends once I was put on anxiety medication.

October: This was so far the best month of college. My roommates and I worked out our issues to begin the month, and I began to get that female attention that’s avoided me for so long. I felt like I was making it and doing well, and fraternity rush was even beginning.

November: So this month has been a weird one, it began with a tragedy on campus and pretty much everybody getting sick, and my mental health not being as great as a result, but then it turned better when I got a bid from a frat I liked last week and I began to get quite a bit better from being sick. But over the last week or so I’ve done some things that I’m not to proud of specifically related to fapping that are very relevant to this year’s challenge.

There’s always something that happens that makes me know how much I “need” this challenge, and what I just said above is just that. Essentially I bought $300 of “stuff” on Amazon (not anything too weird my “thing” isn’t overly abnormal but still a little weird, but I will not talk about it out of respect for those who may have a trigger from that kind of shit, I can dm or some shit if you guys really wanted to know what it was). The first thing came in the mail Friday, and my roommate almost caught me with it. The second and third things came on Monday, and one of the boxes wasn’t too discreet. So I had to find a way to get across campus and open it without being caught, which I did and it was a scarring feeling regardless, my college crush even saw me fumbling around with the box and it sucked to have her see me so spooked. Then yesterday after I came home and stored that shit in the closet my mom was with me looking for something and I pushed her away from the closet. I felt terrible about doing it but I did it to protect her. Those items are now locked away in my footlocker so it would be difficult for her or my dad to find it.

I don’t know but I just have this dirty pathetic feeling about it all. How am I supposed to feel good about being “that” kid opening Amazon boxes in the bathroom, jerking off in my dorm bed, or pushing his mom. But there is ample opportunity for a turn-around that’s about to start.

This year will likely be orders of magnitude easier than last year. It is 31 days and runs from Thursday, November 25 to Saturday, December 25. I return to school on Sunday, November 28 and return home on Friday, December 17. Then the final stretch is spent back at home, with maybe a trip away sprinkled in. Its much harder to get off at school than it is at home. Meaning that if I make it to Sunday afternoon I’ll likely make it to December 17. And because we’re away for Thanksgiving in two different places from now until Saturday, I will only spend a single night at home until almost the final week.

If I survive until I go back to school, I plan on running the gauntlet this time and going all the way. If I come back from school, with 8.5 days remaining, and still have a perfect game, I’ll definitely not plan to take my foot off the gas and I’ll try to go all the way.

It will be much easier to keep busy and occupied this time, but I need to get out of my dorm and eventually my house and make that shit happen. That’s all part of the strategy and beauty of this challenge. You take the time you would have used to jack off, and put it to good use, and believe me, I’ll now have plenty of time to spare.

One thing I will say, is that I have quite a shitty feeling about 2022, that it will be another shitty year unlike this one, and if I end up being right, I wanna make the most of the time beforehand and party like it’s 2021! Let’s go for round six! Beginning in 68 short minutes!

 

UPDATE: It is currently 12:03 AM, meaning that this year’s challenge is on! Hopefully I’ll be a better man 31 days from now than I am today. Only time will tell, and how I do is all up to me. I have a perfect game now, and I strive to keep it that way.

 

DAY ONE:
Today was a relatively good start to the challenge. There were little urges, but enough to make me think that running the gauntlet may not happen this year. But I won’t let it dissuade me just yet. Tonight I’m at my grandparents house and tomorrow and Saturday I’ll be skiing so I’ll remain busy. Then I’ll be home on Sunday but not for long as I’ll be back at school before the day is up.

Has it set in yet? No, of course not. But it will soon enough. And when it does, I’ll be ready for it.

 

DAY TWO:
This was probably the easiest second day I’ve been a part of. Almost no edging, kept busy, and I’m still away from home. Tomorrow I go back home and tomorrow night I’m at home for the only time until almost the end of the challenge, which could cause problems but I’m not overly worried. As long as I don’t initially seek out triggers I’ll likely be completely fine. But let’s see how the third day goes. Should be interesting.

 

DAY THREE:
So I made it through the third day unscathed. And while it’s starting to get a bit tougher I’m avoiding that initial urge to look which seems to be working so far.

All I gotta do now is make it through tomorrow and head back up to school. Should be good.

 

DAY FOUR:
I survived and made it back up to school. I had my biggest urge last night, but even upon edging for an hour I didn’t come close to release. That essentially told me that for the first time since legitimately the first year, way back in 2016, I may be flatlining. However, my general mood doesn’t feel like that. I just can’t get close to ejaculation I guess, which isn’t a bad thing, and as the hose continues to fill and December 26th approaches, that issue will likely go away.

But as of today, right now, the long haul has officially begun, and I’ve entered the meat and potatoes, the main part of the challenge, on the longest opening streak I have ever had that shows no signs of stopping.

School opens up a whole new can of worms, but we’ll see how it really impacts my urges.

 

DAY FIVE:
So school has started again, and the work has ramped back up, and seemingly the urges have too, but all of the hustle and bustle often keeps that at bay. I don’t think I’m flatlining because I’m still horny, but I do get irritated at points.

Big things are happening with me however. For the first time ever, I’m going to be asking a girl to a dance. I’m going to make myself look good, maybe try a glow up this weekend, and I want to glow up my area.

A big record is about to be broken if I can make it through tonight. My longest streak ever in this challenge was set in 2017, at just over 5 days 4 hours, I’m currently at 5 days 0 hours. It feels weird, and I can feel the “expansion” down there already. I can only imagine what it will be like if I make it to December 26th. Overall good day, and onto tomorrow.

 

DAY SIX:
Overall it was an easier day, and a goofier one at that. Today was that girl’s birthday and she seemed very happy when I wished her a happy birthday.

Another important thing is that a big record has been shattered. I’m officially on my longest streak ever in this challenge. Admittedly it’s beginning to get to be a bit much and the difficulty is increasing, but I’m managing.

Happy end of No Nut November, now that it’s December, Christmas is clearly in sight.

 

DAY SEVEN:
For the first time since I was 14 years old, I have made it a week without fapping. I “came” close in August when college began, but I missed by a few hours, now I’ve made it.

The high energy from the semen retention is getting to be a bit much, but I’m managing. It is getting very hard now as every time I lie down I’m rock hard. Onto week two.

 

DAY EIGHT:
The magical ride marches on. I’m still unscathed and it was an easier day relatively.

Unfortunately I have so much energy that I’m beginning to act much more childish and stupid. I feel like I’m 13 again which isn’t necessarily a good thing. Fortunately I still have more charisma and confidence to go along with that.

I still don’t know if I’ll go all the way, but I’d like to try.

 

DAY NINE:
Doing this a little bit early because I’m currently in the bathroom at a party. I’m getting plastered right now, and that’s a first for me. Today was a good day that was relatively easy, I’m still here, and flying high. I had an exam today that seemed to go well, but for now, it’s time to party.

 

DAY TEN:
So today was a pretty restful day. I got very drunk last night and had to be walked back to my dorm. It was quite the sight I hear. But that resulted in a hangover and a quiet day after I had recovered.

Now, after shattering records, I’m about to enter the middle third of the challenge, although it feels like it has already begun, it hasn’t, but I’m well on my way. It’s time to keep rolling on.

 

DAY ELEVEN:
I took it easy today, but today was probably the most difficult day so far, but despite it all, I’m still standing, 11-0 heading into the second week of school, the last full week before winter break. Let’s get it.

 

DAY TWELVE:
Today featured something that has never happened in my life. I asked a girl to formal, and she said yes after thinking about it.

Of course, there’s always the chance that she backs out of it, so I’m not certain on this, but the stars aligned for the opportunity to ask her, and I pounced on that chance.

NoFap wise, the streak plows on, yet another day unscathed at nearly 40% of the way through the challenge.

If I make it to noon on Friday, I will have officially crossed the Rubicon into the second half of the challenge. That is something I would really like to see happen, because if it does, than I can try my hardest to ride it out to the bitter end, knowing that more is behind me than ahead of me. The teens begin now, let’s tackle them.

 

DAY THIRTEEN:
Today was a bit of a harder day, but I remain unscathed thus far.

With the end of the semester approaching, school is about to take up more of my time than before, meaning that it’s rather likely that I will not have much time to fap. This increases the odds that I come home next Friday unscathed, which is just the next leg in this long marathon.

In other news, I’m upping my self care game, I bought new Old Spice deodorant Sunday and a new comb today, gonna have to be fresh and clean for now, Friday night, and beyond.

 

DAY FOURTEEN:
Well it’s been done, two weeks, I’m on the longest streak I’ve been on in history, not counting the 12.5 years I went from birth to that first fap. It feels weird, but this moment almost didn’t happen. Earlier today I almost flew too close to the Sun, and probably came the closest to failing this whole time. It was the first time I was nearly uncontrollably horny this whole time, and it showed because when I took a nap my dream involved me trying to fap and failing.

But I woke up, had shit to do, and moved on. It’s what I had to do, and I did it. Tomorrow is a very busy day, probably the busiest day of the challenge, which will be good for me if today’s feelings return.

Another thing I’m also worried about is the possibility of getting ghosted by my formal date. I made it pretty clear that it was a friends thing, but she doesn’t seem overly enthusiastic although we haven’t talked about it much. I’m worried about her telling me no tomorrow or on Friday or her just not showing up on Friday, but I’ll try not to think about it it’s just that I’ve never had a date like this before and part of me feels like it could be too good to be true.

 

DAY FIFTEEN:
Another day is in the books, and it is the last full day of the first half. Tomorrow marks halfway day, and it’s a big day for other reasons.

Tomorrow I will be doing something that I’ve never done before (well not since I was 10), in going to a dance with a girl. It’s kinda like a date but we’re chill. That’s looming over me and I’m a little bit stressed about it but I know that I’ll be fine and that shit will all work out so I’m good.

The bad news is that unfortunately, despite the fact that I’ve nearly made it halfway, I don’t know how much longer I can keep this up. It’s been getting very difficult in the past few days, and the only reason why I still have a perfect game is because of college. If I was back home I probably would have failed on like day five or six, but not here.

The return home looms ahead, and unfortunately that may be the end of the line, but I’ll fight it out, I won’t go down easy, I want the pride of making it to the bitter end to be mine, and I have to go after it.

 

DAY SIXTEEN:
Today was formal night and I’m pretty sure I got friendzoned, not completely sure, just kinda sure. But it’s okay, shit can change, and even if not, I’m okay just being friends with her.

Halfway day got easier as it went on. Right now I’m energized and not feeling urges, I’m good. I actually feel like I can make it to the end again. I gotta put in the effort to make the glory mine though. Onto the last weekend of the semester.

 

DAY SEVENTEEN:
So the more I thought about it the more sad I got about what happened, I feel like I might have creeped her out, but everybody has assured me that I’m all good.

Currently drunk at a party again, just not wasted, so I’m feeling a lot better right now. I’m hoping I get to talk to her today and that shit is normal, because I’m really interested in being friends and not anything more anymore. I’m getting over it in the best way I can, by getting a little drunk and meeting new people.

In terms of NoFap, it was easier, and I’m now in the final two weeks, feeling alright. I’m gonna try to run the table, we’ll see how the next 14 days roll my dice.

 

DAY EIGHTEEN:
So I ended up meeting new people at the party, mainly girls and mainly seniors who either had boyfriends or were out of my league. But that’s okay, the whole experience made me feel better.

Then later on in the day I found out from the girl’s roommate (my friend) that she had a “potential interest” from one of the guys at the formal. Ouch. Like I’m obviously not upset at her, I’m just upset with the concept, it makes me feel somewhat inadequate. But I’ll manage, I’ve already moved on there’s just some lingering what if’s like what could have been or what should have I done. This shit’s a learning experience.

But the day that followed was relatively easy in comparison to most of the past week. I don’t know if something will change going forward as the third and final week of school begins. Let’s get it.