Worst day of my life: payed for sex

Greetings to all

I am a latino guy who was celibate for 10 years. Late 2008 through the early part of this year 2019. I had struggled frequently to be involved in any relationship with a female.

I became addicted to porn immediately while being celibate thinking it was harmless. My logic was since I am not harming no one and also maintaining my sexual purity that maybe I was doing my future mate a favor? Well in 2017 and up until January 2019 I became addicted to webcam porn girls. I started spending lots of money to masturbate to some of these girls.

Then in February of 2019 I meant a lovely and beautiful girl. She was single mom and was divorced. We were getting to know each other each night on the phone. One Saturday afternoon I got off of work. I was missing this girl so much. So I was searching through the internet out of boredom when I stumbled across a female escort website. I called a girl up and setup an appointment to see her.

I meant her in her hotel room. I "donated" her requested donation. We proceeded to do the act. I told her I hadn't been with a women in such a long time. She hopped on me and started getting real sexual. Long story short guys I gave up my 10 year celibacy to her.

I regret it because I was intending to save this up for a special girl now it's gone and taken. I was so foolish and so stupid to think that this would fill my void up. Not only that but my mouth and lips has been itchy ever since the sexual encounter with the escort. I am scared shitless guys because I don't know if this escort gave me some disease. I am also scared because the girl I am talking to has now told me she wants to be more than friends. I feel like I have fucked up my life.